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箍牙

2010-05-10T17:07:00.001-07:00

世界上最能磨出坚毅和耐力的不是登山也不是马拉松，是箍牙。

单单要决定矫正牙齿的那一刻，已经是一种考验。挣扎在漂亮与疼痛之间，到底要取谁舍谁，是在考验你的guts。因为，这个顷刻的决定又岂止是打一支针、拔一只牙那么简单？它的影响力是延续3年的。

矫正工程正式开始。有些‘幸运儿’在上牙套之前，必须拔掉好几颗牙齿。医生也不会一次性的拔完所有的牙齿，他选择慢性折磨，就是每个星期拔一颗。可是拔牙可以打麻醉剂，除了看到大口大口的血流出来，也不是太大的问题。

绑橡胶圈才可怕。绑橡胶圈的目的是要把你的大牙和大牙之间的空间拉近，硬性移动你的大牙，痛楚可想而知。那段时间里面，你会感到痛不欲生、食欲不振、只可以吃流质食物，听起来很夸张，却非常贴近事实。

来到最核心的步骤 – 上钢线、粘粒粒。朋友告诉我，在那1个小时多里，你就是全程张着嘴巴让医生工作，想必结束之后就是名副其实的合不拢嘴。这些粒粒和钢线也会一直困扰着你，要么就刮伤舌头、要么就弄到口腔不舒服、吃东西还会塞在粒粒间。

以上的过程都可以列为‘阵痛期’。那日复一日的程序才能真正看到你是不是一个持之以恒的人。每天晚上，都必须要小心的刷牙，还要用牙线慢慢清理。睡觉的时候，以为可以解脱了，但原来还要带上一块类似牙套的胶凝。再次强调，这样的事情要做足3年。

最要命的是，我们没有办法即刻看到矫正牙齿所要的结果，还要忍受一段长时间的反效果。在100个矫正牙齿的人当中，至少99个是因为爱美吧。每天对着镜子，咧嘴一笑，那排像银色假牙般的牙套就露出来。好，决定不张开嘴巴来遮丑吧。抿一抿嘴的时候，却又看到自己像是哨牙妹般，嘴巴嘟得可以吊油瓶了。唉，箍牙，哪里美呢？

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只为了等待卸下牙套的那一刻。

天知道那漫长的3年箍牙岁月是怎么过的，就好像穿着钢线内衣3年不能脱啊。

刊登于《风采》4月刊

梁智强

2010-05-10T17:05:00.001-07:00

最近，因为工作的关系，访问了一位两性婚姻治疗师。聊的，就是最近热到爆的梁智强婚外情。无非就是要他分享男性的心理、女性的反应，和维系婚姻的方式。

他很专业地分析梁智强搞三搞四的原因、还提供了太太们一些建议，教他们怎么留住老公。他的分析，或许就是事实；他的建议，或许就会成效。但是，听着听着，真的很碍耳。碍耳不是因为这位治疗师的个人意见，而是因为他的个人意见其实也代表着社会中好一大部分人的想法。就会觉得，女人干嘛那么惨？

他直截了当地承认，男人就是用下半身思考的动物。所以，他对于诱惑的抵御力是非常之差的。特别是有权有势的男人，比如梁导演，他有多么多的机会接触到一些高素质（外貌和身材）的女生，而又有多么多的窈窕淑女向他投怀送抱。套句广东话的俗语，都送到嘴边了，仲唔食？

其实，这样的认知，和成龙的那句‘我犯了天下男人都会犯的错’是一样的。把拈花惹草归类为男人的天性，所以自己做了再多伤害别人的事情，也不过是天性使然。能把自己控制好，就是A等好男人。没有把自己控制好，也不过是个B等普通男人。对，他们只认为自己普通，不会觉得自己‘烂’。

就这样，这些烂男人就永远拿着一个叫着‘天性’的免死金牌，乞求身边女人的同情和社会大众的谅解。

那女人们呢？这位分析师认为，聪明的女人，都会选择隐忍和谅解。为了丈夫和孩子，她会退一步或只眼开只眼闭，而这段婚姻就得以维系。注意到吗？他的用词是‘聪明’。

曾几何时，有原则、有想法、会保护自己的女人都变成了‘愚蠢’。而那些被欺负了一遍又一遍，都还相信对方会为了自己的所谓伟大而悔改的女人都变成了‘聪明’？

就是常从男人口中听到的那句：“只不过是逢场作戏，我最爱的还是你，那件事就让它过去，我还是一样爱你！不要那么傻，为了这点小事典当我们的爱情好吗？”

是谁典当了爱情？这是女人的聪明与愚蠢，还是男人为女人定义的聪明与愚蠢？

这些男人处处留情，还可以理直气壮，难怪我们现在的社会，多了一大票的女同性恋。

刊登于《风采》4月刊

被遗忘的时光

2010-04-08T00:51:00.001-07:00

龙应台的《大江大海一九四九》还在床头，页面任风扇吹呀吹呀，多么忙都好，我一定要在这个月里面完成它。

我记得，当时出席她的新书分享会的时候，她曾经说过这么一番话：“我认为，马来西亚人也应该拥有自己的大江大海，一九四九也好、一九五七也好。”这段话，激起了坐在我侧边，从事电视行业的友人的熊熊烈火。他想要制作一个有如《大江大海》般的电视节目，把马来西亚的历史，用一个非官腔的方式，记录下来。

刻画一幅大江大海，又岂止是一股热情就可以渠道而成的呢？它需要的是掏不尽的历史知识、人脉网络、和背后故事。

我没有那么大的理想。或者说，我不觉得我的能力支撑得起一个那么大的理想。

但是，我不会忘记这本书给我的第一个冲动。

这本书，用每一个小人物的故事，来编织一个大时代的面貌。龙应台从自己的爸爸妈妈说起。对，我的婆婆和外婆，不也经历过那个动荡的大时代吗？我当时就有一股冲动，拿着录音笔和记录簿，到外婆和婆婆的膝下，听她们讲故事。

奈何，这股冲动，没有实现。

站在她们的面前，我不知所措。即便曾经当过实习记者，可以无畏无惧的走向陌生人，访问陌生人，但是在亲人面前总是难以启齿，突然不知道要有一个什么样的开场白。所以，没有录音笔，没有记录簿。

当有一天起床，我不知怎么充满了正能量和勇气，走到外婆的跟前，才发现她连我是谁都不记得了。外婆患上了老人痴呆症，连有没有吃过饭都未必记得，又何苦追问她那封尘了几十年，或许未必想提起的记忆。

我想起了头脑依然非常清醒的婆婆。然后，我发现，我根本听不懂她那一连串的福建话在说什么。我再发现，我就连“婆婆，吃鱼”这么简单的一句话，都没有办法完整地表达给她听。这下可好了，我‘听无’，她也‘听无’，谈什么说故事、听故事。

那股冲动，就这样无疾而终。

她们都已经到达80 多岁高龄了。离开后，那就是一段，我没能把它留下来，被遗忘的时光，没人想起，没人提起。

刊登于《风采》3月刊

不能没有你

2010-02-28T07:33:00.001-08:00

最近看了一部台湾电影，也是2009年金马奖最佳影片作品 - 《不能没有你》。

《不能没有你》改编自台湾一社会新闻’跳天桥事件‘，讲述来自高雄的一对亲生父女因为‘不合法’而面临被分开的危机，以及他们如何在法律、政府机关、恶劣环境的逼迫下，爸爸抱着女儿以跳天桥的方式抗议不公。这则新闻于2003年在台湾造成了很大的轰动，似乎题材本身已让电影具备足够的话题性。

我相信，导演和编剧清楚知道，拍摄这部电影的目的不是为了参展、得奖或是赚钱。这部电影要向我们诉说一个故事。一个以不同形态存在于我们的身边、却频频被忽略、有关被边缘化的故事。因此，他们用了低调而卑微的笔触来表达 - 朴实得全程只用黑白色来呈现、柔和得除了跳桥之外，没有什么大吵大闹或激烈动作场面。就连父女最后团聚的场面，也只是各站一方，对望着，仅此而已。

这个高雄的故事，也在吉隆坡的某一处周而复始的上演着。

高楼大厦一旁座落着非法木屋是我们常常看到的景象。我们的车子从高速公路上飞驰而过的时候，只对它瞄了一眼，就再无问津。到底里头住着怎么样的人？他们过着的是什么样的生活？他们一日作息是如何？我们常会简洁地盖上两个印章：‘外劳’、‘贫穷’。

可‘外劳’不是全部。里头可能住着一对相依为命的父女、一对充斥着家庭暴力的夫妇、或是一个入不敷出的贫困家庭。他们维持生计的方式就是一堆没人愿意做、危险性极高的散工，如非法的石油运输货车司机、又如缺乏安全措施的建筑地盘工人。

‘贫穷’更不是终点。贫穷而急于挣钱的生活让他们无暇吸收资讯、没有能力负担媒体网络、也很少机会接触到贫穷阶级以外的人，导致了他们的无知。他们不懂得如何通过社会福利机制来改善生活、他们不懂得使用法律途径来保障自身权益、他们更不懂得在面对问题的时候到底可以向谁求救。所以，他们也不懂得，7岁了，该送小孩受免费教育了。就像《不能没有你》的爸爸不知道要给女儿登记户籍一样。

这样的贫穷与无知就在这个阶级里不断地恶性循环着。

故事的另一面是，政府的无能和制度的缺陷延续了这个循环。《不能没有你》的爸爸从地方登记局被踢到福利社、从忙着选举的台北议员办事处踢回地方登记局、再被地方登记局踢回台北。这样的踢皮球游戏我们应该都蛮熟悉吧。

当政府没有一个管道协助小市民解决问题，而官员又以‘没有这样的规矩’为藉口而拒绝提供协助，或是‘你这个case应该是另一个部门的事’来推卸责任，再多的承诺和口号都是枉然。

因为，没有人听到他们的声音。

刊登于《风采》2月刊

助纣为虐

2010-02-28T07:32:00.002-08:00

常听当老师的妈妈说，学校里最讨厌的就是那些很‘巴闭’的家长。仗着自己有点钱有点势，就一味包庇自己的小孩。不准打、不准骂，不然就随时挨告。然后这个小孩就开始从纯粹的不懂事变得有意识的霸道，在学校里耀武扬威，肆意欺负其他同学。

是的，那些极端分子就是在耀武扬威。他们从小受到的教育是这样的：

领袖高举匕首，宣示所谓主权的时候，得到的是民族的欢呼，而不是煽动种族情绪的惩罚。哦…原来言语上欺负同学是被允许的，一年几次也没问题。

当他的同学不能忍受被欺负了，举手抗议，反而被痛骂了一顿，被指责挑衅同学间的情谊，有的还被罚留堂。哦…原来自己是可以乱乱来，同学也无反击之力的。

接着上演的当然就是得寸进尺的戏码啦。这群极端分子拖着牛头上街示威，又踢又踩，就像是把玩着同学最心爱的东西，然后比着胜利手势伸舌头。哦…原来下场也没怎么样啊，同学还被劝说要宽容一点。

横行霸道就是这种包庇教育的结果。

这群极端分子习惯了当老大，眼里容不下一粒沙子，即使只是一个简单的字眼运用，就足以令他们幼稚地发飚。

但是，除了幼稚之外，他们毕竟不是小孩。小孩最过分也只是懂得把图钉放到同学的椅子上，他们却把火放到别人的宗教场所。动机是恶劣的、手法是可怕的、伤害是巨大的。

而那些睁一只眼闭一只眼的人们，你们在干什么呢？不是很爱用内安法令来拘捕任何可疑为‘煽动种族情绪的极端分子’和‘制造恐慌的恐怖分子’吗？他们还不算是拘捕对象哦？

尊重和包容，是这群极端分子没学会的，也是溺爱他们的家长没教导的。

刊登于《风采》1月刊

属于大家的圣诞

2010-02-28T07:32:00.001-08:00

家里从来不庆祝圣诞节，所以我跟它也不太熟。这个节日对我而言代表着三件事：一，请它最好坐落在工作日的公共假期；二，讨厌人挤人却又不甘缺席的购物商场大减价；三，进电影院观看系列圣诞电影。

对于圣诞节的由来、平安夜是什么、圣诞老人姓什么我都不知道。我想，既然不是基督教徒，圣诞节应该不太关我的事。

朋友的一个故事，让我重新定义“圣诞节”。且称他为小C。

每逢圣诞前夕，小C的妈妈一定会问他：“你想要圣诞公公给你什么礼物啊？”他就迫不及待地把想了三天的答案告诉妈妈：“可不可以跟圣诞公公要Game Boy？”然后两母子就一起把大大小小的红色袜子挂在客厅左侧的圣诞树上，小C还不断默念恳求圣诞公公真的会到访。

是的，就如故事书里的情节，第二天早上，小C就在袜子里找到他梦寐以求的电子游戏机。也如同故事里的小孩，小C对于圣诞老公公来家里派礼物一事雀跃万分、深信不疑。

这或许是个再平凡不过的圣诞童话，但这小小的大话却编造了无数个孩子的美丽梦想，也牢牢

拉住了无数个温暖家庭的浓浓情谊。

长大后的小C，当然知道所谓的圣诞老公公就是自己的爸爸和妈妈。从21岁开始，小C就每年圣诞前夕问爸爸妈妈想要从圣诞老公公那里得到什么，趁他们不注意的时候塞进属于他们的红袜子里。同样的，爸爸妈妈就会在隔天早上收到一个已预知的‘惊喜’。

只是圣诞老公公换人做了。

就像很多的企业公司里，都有圣诞礼物交换环节。慷慨解囊的老板，还会请员工们吃个圣诞大餐。在这一天，不管你平时职位有多高、他多么厉害勾心斗角、我多么的不起眼，人人都是圣诞老人。人人手上都有一份祝福，送到另外一个人的手上；人人脸上都会挂着一颦笑嫣，传染到另一个人的身上。

这和农历新年要说‘恭喜发财’和送红包的意义很相似。只是一者偏向热闹喧嚣、一者偏向安静温馨。

不是基督教徒才能庆祝圣诞，不是留白胡子才能当圣诞老人。

刊登于《风采》12月刊

轰趴

2010-02-28T07:30:00.000-08:00

电影太孤独、唱K会走调、泡酒吧太贵、吹水太无聊，当你觉得马来西亚的夜生活太枯燥，轰趴就是王道。

轰趴，是一个我们常在台湾综艺节目中听到的词汇。它是Home Party的音译，顾名思义就是家居派对。它也可以是意译，誓要把来客都轰到趴下来。这项活动在英美国家是家常便饭、在台湾和中国大陆是时尚的象征、在墨尔本这个文化大熔炉当然也少不了。

一间较为宽敞的家，加上一群猪朋狗友，就能欢度一个疯狂的夜晚。

由于灯光和音响设备的限制和可能被邻居臭骂的考量，我们这些平民百姓的轰趴通常都没有五光十射的灯光和强力节奏的舞曲（独立式豪宅则另当别论）。但是，这丝毫不减低派对的娱乐性，因为那些都只是华丽的包装，创意主题才是轰趴的魂魄。

主题决定了派对的布置、服装、食物、音乐和气氛。在构思主题的时候，创意是最高指标，那些平庸乏味的‘跨年派对’或‘圣诞夜’就免了吧。主题种类繁多，它可以是制服派对、可以是电影和卡通人物、也可以是指某个年代。

比如，我们可以设个‘回到童年’的主题。当天，所有来宾都必须要打扮成小孩一样，要怎么变成小孩就让他们自由发挥，你会得到很多的惊喜。有人会穿着小学校服、有的会把短裤裤裆和袜子都穿得高高的、有的会索性绑着冲天炮出席派对。

现场布置当然也不能马虎。延续着同样的主题，现场布置可以有各式各类的气球、把家家酒的玩具厨房器具都拿出来、Lego和Uno更是不可或缺，墙上还可贴满小时候的照片和绘画作品。食物方面，一定是薯条、炸鸡块、冰淇淋、巧克力和棒棒糖之流 – 小孩超喜爱大人超反感的那些。

每个人到了派对都像是回到自己的幼稚园，回到那个“老师，我要小便”和“我不要跟你好了”的年代。

决定派对成败的，除了主题，就是流程和游戏。只要流程编排好玩，就能High翻整晚。首先，要考量来宾人数、性格和年龄，才能设计一些对味的游戏。年纪稍轻的就来些团康游戏、疯狂整人游戏是大学生的最爱、那些年纪稍长成熟稳重又很拘谨的朋友或许就要加入一些酒精来推高他们的情绪了。

其次，要看看当晚是为什么而设的派对。如果是个生日派对，那作弄生日的人是一定要的啦，比如要他从面粉堆中用嘴巴寻找糖果。派对还可以安排一个服装走秀，颁奖给穿得最切合主题的朋友，惩罚最没有诚意的来宾，就砸个鸡蛋什么的。嘿嘿，想起来都开心。

所以，各位爸爸妈妈，别担心。轰趴不一定是要裸体、滥交和吸毒的。

刊登于《风采》10月刊

陶晶莹

2009-12-07T05:53:00.000-08:00

哈哈哈...最近刚看完她的书，刚好是时间po这篇文章了。是地，虽然到了这把不应该再追星的年纪，我豪不掩饰我对她的爱！XD

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从《姐姐妹妹站起来》的大声高呼、《太委屈》的哀心吟唱、到《女人心事》的微笑鼓励，房间里她细腻而又略带稚气的歌声，承载着她的经历和我的回忆。仿佛轻轻牵起我的手，掀开帘幕，让我窥视自己痴迷偶像的疯狂岁月。

当时，有线电视台才攻占马来西亚市场不久，加上初中生的功课量不多，在家除了翻阅娱乐版就是握着遥控器转换频道。是的，就是那么没有营养令爸妈生气又无法自拔的颓废生活。不知道你记不记得每逢周日下午5.30第31频道就会有个眼睛咪咪、嘴角有痣、头上顶着怪发、不太漂亮的女生在镜头前报娱乐新闻呢？

我才不懂得什么是犀利语言、反应敏捷、深入访问、还是化解冷场，我只知道，她很好笑 -- 这是我守着该节目的唯一理由。我，要幽默。

随着年龄增长，我逐渐从感觉她很好笑‘成长’到理解她的笑点，我开始认识到，原来她也很认真。比如，她大拿性爱课题开玩笑时，看似娱乐效果，实际上是以言教告诉女性，性爱讨论不是男性的专利，女性观点和感受也应受到尊重。我，要平等。

然后我开始接触她的音乐、阅读她写的书、上网搜寻她的资料，好像恨不得把她处事价值观和待人方式都学起来，连唱歌都要模仿她。最巅峰时刻，我房间有一面墙都是陶子和桃子。贴着她的巨型海报、摆着她的书和专辑CD、还有一张张自己亲手描绘的肖像和图片。我玩电台游戏赢取她的签唱会入门票、下着雨硬要拉一票朋友去和她握手，还好我回家还懂得洗手。哈！或许对很多追星族而言，这些都只是‘一块蛋糕’（陶子对于a piece of cake的译法）吧。

近几年来，陶子结婚育子，她原来有菱有角、得罪人多、称呼人少的言语，也开始变得圆润温暖。在超级星光大道的节目里，不时可以看到她一手调侃、一手安抚的巧妙拿捏，还常常引经据典与选手们分享人生道理。她的改变让我看到了自己很多固守观点和人生态度的破绽。我，要成长。

陶晶莹，对我而言，就像是一本启示录。每每翻阅她，我就会开始思索自己应该要什么、做什么。

在这里和你分享其中一页吧！她曾说：“不管你眼睛比我大多少，我们看出去的世界是一样的。不管你胸部比我大多少，我们一样都可以喂饱我们自己的孩子。不管你屁股比我翘多少，我们还是只能穿一条裤子。”她就是这样一个人，认清了自己的屁股、眼睛、胸部，然后昂首阔步。

你找到你的启示录了吗？

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陶晶莹《我爱故我在》新书预购开跑啦！

2009-11-16T23:12:00.000-08:00

书中精彩片段：

◆ 送朋友進無間地獄

A在找我們泣訴時，看起來是那麼楚楚可憐、心意已決，決定要離開那渾球！
後來，A還是和那男人復合了。
通常，如果姊妹淘開始執迷不悟，妳也只能默默地目送她進去那無間地獄。

◆ 把結婚生子當成使命，而不是天命。

全球人口已經夠多，好男人出現速度又不成正比；借精未婚生子又是太巨大不可測的未知……女人們或許應該把結婚生子當成使命，而不是天命。
人生中有許多使命，可以選擇要不要扛。
聖女貞德和花木蘭，選擇了當時她們認為該接下的使命，而不是接受可能在當時更不可抗逆的天命──結婚生子。

◆ 沒玩夠先別結婚

當你看過、聽過、玩過、冒險過、失去過、得到過、控制過、失控過、
野過、瘋過，你才會甘願地去經營一段穩定的關係。

◆ 向偷情的男人們學習

我並不鼓勵外遇、偷情。此事能免則免。但若真的遇上了，請女人們向偷情的
男人們學習──不主動坦白，不積極選擇，吃完擦乾淨，拍拍屁股回家。

◆人生許多態度，越早想清楚越好。比如說，「承認」。

承認愛一個人，承認不愛一個人，承認愛上一個不愛你的人，承認愛上一個不適合你的人；承認妳愛他只是寂寞得要死；承認妳想結婚只是怕不嫁別人會用異樣眼光看妳；承認你就是喜歡波大無腦的花痴；承認你愛她愛得很卑微……
怎樣，難不難？

◆ 愛的付出

付出的不見得能收回，但在愛中，不付出一定得不到真正的幸福。

◆ 讓人焦慮的公平

男女平權主義對於女人在床上「服侍」男人一定很倒彈。但我認為，
「那種」男女平權論調對兩性關係不但沒幫助，反而讓兩性更焦慮。

◆ 婚前一定要有性行為

平常大家會說，施比受更有福，這樣的一句話，為何不能應用在性行為上？
他媽的這個社會對性的壓抑導致性知識貧乏真是害死多少男男女女！去！

转自博客来网络书店，欲预购请点击这里。

My Inspiring Senior

2009-11-12T11:32:00.000-08:00

Sitting in front of her disobedient Aku-CEpat-Rosak laptop, she plugs and unplugs her adapter, looks a bit frustrated - probably worrying about her piles of work - but does not lose her temper. After a tug of war with Mr. Aku, she gives up and still does not show slight anger. Oh, she just had a tiring day and has deadlines ahead.

I have been admiring this senior - not in a romantic way duh - since long ago. Because she endures longer than the Everlasting Energizer Bunny.

During our high school days, she was never the most outstanding person. She worked very hard, behind the scenes. She seldom got on stage and received applauses like we did. While people were leaving the group due to stress and failures, she stood firmly in her position working day and night and sometimes midnights. Never asked for more and never did less.

And her lips maintained curving up.

She is still the same person. Never ending routine such in radio shows, drama scripts, column articles and live events consume her time but not her passion. Despite countless editings, she treats her script in full enthusiasm and shares me her joy. After years of being a music chart DJ, her eyes still sparkle when she talks about Evan Yo's latest album.

The only difference is she's now dazzlingly bright.

Having a kind and loving heart, she is not always treated the same way. *Curse gao gao those who hurt her* She falls a lot. She must have cried too. You know, pisces. Don't worry though. She will come back in her perfect state and get ready for her next fight.

With her lips upward.

I meant it when I said "I salute you". Not just because of being a 豬籠草. XD

轮椅潇洒行

2009-10-19T09:16:00.001-07:00

初来到墨尔本的时候，我在想，这个城市怎么残障人士特别多啊？无论在哪里都常常会看到行动不便、坐着遥控轮椅的人。后来我自己更正了这个说法 – 这个城市可以在户外活动的残障人士特别多。

把镜头转向马来西亚，残障朋友们都到哪里呢？家人工作的时候就无聊地呆在残障中心、家人可以相伴的时候就尽量躲在家里、没人扶持的就只能在街上乞讨。这样的差异当然不是因为墨尔本的残障朋友特别乐观积极抑或是马来西亚的残障朋友特别自暴自弃。

让我们做个简单的推想。如果你有个还在牙牙学语的小孩，而你身处的城市从来没有完备的婴儿设施，譬如餐馆不会提供婴儿椅、购物中心不会有育婴室。在这种连换尿布都特别麻烦的情况下，你会不会常把小孩带出去呢？

道理是一样的。墨尔本有而马来西亚残障朋友没有的，是便利。

首先，我们进出的每座楼宇和建筑，都一定会设有残障人士走道或电梯。再来，去到哪里，都一定会有个残障人士专用厕所，空间宽广、设有扶手。更酷的是，就连巴士和电车都会助他们一臂之力。每当有残障人士要上车的时候，司机就会用一个特别的机制将车子倾斜一边，好让残障人士能顺利地将轮椅驾入公车。

因此，他们得到一定程度的自由，不需要依赖身边的人。有的拿着书本到学校上课、有的拎着公事包在国际企业上班、还有的提着菜篮在市集买菜 – 都是自己一个人行动。

当然，墨尔本市政府偶尔还是会被骂一下，比如被投诉有一些没有残障设备的旧电车仍然没有被撤换。而相应的，政府也考虑将原来2032年撤换所有旧电车的目标提前。有如此的诉求，就代表这个社会有相关的醒觉意识。政府懂得聆听社会诉求、作出改变，就会有进步。

马来西亚几时会把残障人士列入议程呢？政客们又几时会聆听到我们的声音呢？

墨尔本有而马来西亚残障朋友没有的，是便利。牢牢支撑着便利的，是进步。

刊登于《风采》九月刊

低头思故乡

2009-09-23T07:40:00.003-07:00

很多人或许会认为，我们这些所谓海外留学生，就是一群觉得外国的月亮比较圆、对马来西亚不闻不问的家伙。我也曾以为自己对马来西亚这片土地留恋的，应该只有我的家人、朋友和美食 – 我不爱国。但原来李白还没有out的，我竟然还真的会‘思故乡’，定期关心一下马来西亚的近况。我再发现，原来我身边很多朋友也会这么做。

我们这群晒外国月亮的家伙关心马来西亚的方式都和网络脱离不了关系 – 游览新闻网站、阅读部落格、看看Youtube、注意一下朋友在Facebook的相关分享。所有的资讯都是迅速而简短的，因此对事情的来龙去脉大都一知半解，留下的印象也模模糊糊。

现在我就考考自己（顺便考考你），试列下对马来西亚半年多来发生的十件大事：

一，纳吉当了首相。此时，我想起悬而未决的阿旦杜亚事件。

二，首相要打造一个马来西亚。汗颜！我到现在都还搞不清楚‘一个马来西亚’为何物。

三，霹雳议员忽然失踪，然后霹雳忽然变天，然后就乱糟糟，后续新闻我就没耐心跟了。

四，一个黑色马来西亚民间运动开始发烧。

五，有段时间在马来西亚穿黑衣随时锒铛入狱。我对这件事印象特别深刻，因为我有位朋友也在扣留所住了一夜。我记得当时自己还大呼：“哈？怎么办？我酱喜欢黑色！”

六，A型流感爆发，我最好不要回家，不然一定被隔离（墨尔本是H1N1首都）。

七，曼联到访马来西亚，和我们的国家队切磋。看着照片里的球场一片红海，似乎只有在这个时刻马来西亚人才能跨越所有的界限。

八，有位名为赵明福的政治秘书竟在反贪污局大厦坠死，真相至今尚未还原，他本来隔天就要结婚了。

九，真正的马来西亚人，Yasmin Ahmad过世了。

十，2万人参与反内安法令和平集会，被马来西亚警方用催泪弹和水炮攻击。去年中国人‘抗议澳洲媒体抹黑中国藏独事件’在墨尔本的游行是由澳洲警方帮忙开路的，多么大的对比！

以上除了是我的个人的片段记忆，也是我们这些海外留学生会聊起的话题。可笑吧？聊起自己的国家，似乎都是不太快乐的事。大家的意见通常可以分为三派 -- 第一派人秉持事不关己努力赚钱政策；第二派人认为马来西亚不宜住人要远走高飞；第三派人仍情牵马来西亚，会为了她气愤、伤心、郁闷。

“第三派人，好好珍惜手中那一票吧。”我对自己说。

刊登于《风采》九月刊

陶子写给黎础宁的信

2009-09-16T23:55:00.000-07:00

有收看超级星光大道的朋友应该会注意到黎础宁这位选手吧。她去年自杀身亡，陶子写了一封信给她。共勉之。

礎寧：

自從妳走了以後，我們的心裡都不大舒服；談起妳的事，莫不哀聲歎氣、或是紅了眼眶。很想和妳好好聊聊，在一切都還來得及的時候；現在，有些遲了，但或許，我心裡想對妳講的話，仍能給和妳一樣徬徨的人做參考。

首先想和妳聊的是愛情的部份。

愛情是和權力相斥的。有時候，我們一頭栽入愛情，便失去了掌控的權力。我們的生活作息、身心靈、喜怒哀樂，幾乎都不歸自己管了。如果碰到的是一個懂得同等回應、愛妳疼妳的人，那麼妳便會置身天堂；反之，便如同在煉獄爬行，他偶爾的略施小惠，是妳心甘情願的原因，我想，妳是碰到了後者。除了少數「幸運」的人（事實上，我不覺得那叫做幸運！）沒在愛情路上受過折磨、遇到壞人之外，大部分的人多多少少都吃過些虧。

我和我的女性友人們，都曾遭遇過。騙錢的、背叛的、撒漫天大謊的、有家室的、有秘密的、有病的??，多到怪到妳欲振乏力，欲哭無淚；當然，不瞞妳說，在那當下，我們也想要死過─但當我們抱著朋友哭、抱著馬桶吐、抱著酒瓶睡，行屍走肉一兩個月後，突然就好像被雷打到一樣：我在幹嘛？那個人哪裡好？一點都不值得我頹廢！而且，看多了爛咖，妳就能免疫，然後能一眼看到好男人，找到幸福。為一個不珍惜妳的人而死，不但不值得，他們也不會有太多感覺。

其次，我想和妳聊的是父母對孩子的愛。

這兩週，台北陰雨連綿，我的女兒荳荳異位性皮膚炎便發作了。小小的屁股、雙腿、手肘和腕部，充滿了小小的顆粒。一天兩次，她爸爸拿著藥膏細細擦遍全身；但臨睡前，發病的部位更是奇癢難耐，於是，我和她爸便得擔任「搔癢大隊」，用搓、用擦，而不可用抓的，才能暫時止癢而不會抓破皮導致惡化擴大。這樣搓搓擦擦，總要兩三個小時，她才能好好入睡。

每天早上，她要上學。她已經很有主見地選擇要穿什麼；外面 32℃ ，她吵著要穿羽絨衣；低溫 15℃ ，她說要穿衝浪褲配拖鞋（學她爸）??，每天光為了出門，我們得勸說她好久。餵她吃飯更是難上加難。她已經夠瘦了，卻不喜歡吃東西。往往一頓飯要恩威並施地搞個兩個小時，才勉強吃完一碗；我們追著餵、哄著餵、嚇著餵，腰也痠了、嗓子也啞了。

她如果提起班上男生的名字，我們便躡手躡腳地明查暗訪那男孩的樣子，她爸還會忍不住暗喊：「×××，給我小心一點！」

她如果開心地笑了，我們覺得一天真美好。她如果鬧鬧的，我們會比較不開心，但還是千方百計地想讓她開心。

她才不到三歲，我們已經愛她愛到不能自己。礎寧，妳二十四歲，妳知道妳的父母愛妳愛得有多深嗎？
每當我想起在星光大道觀眾席裡，妳那對開心又驕傲的父母，我就覺得，妳太狠心。

孩子，是曾與母親共生的一塊心頭肉，也是父母一輩子最甘願的擔憂。
妳現在了解了嗎？希望妳想通了，也要在天上好好看顧妳的父母家人。

陶子姊

转载自2008年12月份《ELLE》

Giraffe and Friends

2009-09-07T00:38:00.000-07:00

YAY! It's opened!

Friends have been telling me how great this place is, and it took me three visits to finally get into the cafe. =.=

Visit their website for the exact opening hours to avoid disappointment..

Giraffe Cafe, 302 Lt Lonsdale St, Melbourne

It's a cosy cafe which makes you feel like home.

Decorated with ornaments which create an old style ambience.

Highlight of the day: Cheese fondue~

Tiramisu - Dip the sponge finger into the coffee then scoop the mascarpone cheese.

Brownies garnished with pistachio

Everything taste delicious. Is it the food, the environment, or the companions? :)

衣柜里的彩虹

2009-09-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

“就好像杀人一样，你一旦容许它发生，其他人就会开始乱来了。”朋友在聊天中提出了这么一段伟论，旁边还有人拼命点头附和。我心里在嘀咕：“为什么21世纪的大学生还会这。么。野。蛮。”

先生，不好意思，他们没有残害另一个生命，他们只是想活出属于自己的生命。你可以不认同他们的价值观，但你不能不尊重他们的选择。

虽然同性恋已经不再是禁语，但很多人在提起他们的时候总是会不由自主的发出‘咦恶’的声响，或是投以鄙夷的眼光，甚至有人会咬牙切齿的咒骂他们变态。去和同志交个朋友吧，或许你会有些不一样的想法。

我上大学的时候有幸参演了一齣属于亚洲女同志的舞台剧，亲身见证她们的故事。这齣舞台剧名为‘Wild Orchids’，以中国古代的金兰姐妹为引言，现代女同志的心理挣扎为故事主线，兰花作为标志，喻示着同性间的情愫自古已有，至今却仍无法自由呼吸。

舞台剧从管理层到制作团队有不少的女同志。那天，我静静地听着他们的故事。

制作总监在香港长大，交过几个男朋友和女朋友，但和男生在一起都不超过3个月，和同性的恋情却能长久经营。妈妈发现她有女朋友，又哭又跪，再把她送到国外，誓要棒打鸳鸯。她现在在墨尔本有个交往了2年的同性伴侣，却从来没有停止过隐瞒妈妈的内疚与煎熬。妈妈到访，她的另一半还要刻意搬出去住。

导演从小就是个男子头，不喜欢长发、不喜欢裙子、不喜欢胸部、不喜欢男生。离开了家庭的束缚，她在墨尔本毅然剪了帅气超短发，束起了自己的胸部，当起了Butch （指作为男性的女同志）。她请了不知情的家人前来观赏我们的舞台剧，并在落幕致词时说：“我很爱你们，我很想让你们看到真正的我，我很希望你们能接受这个样子的我，”我们在后台清楚地听见她的哽咽。

听说，后来她和家人吵了大架。她对于这齣舞台剧的期许，期许自己的声音被听见、期许自己的身份被认可、期许自己可以拥抱自己，或许都被那场大架打击得支碎破离了。

其实，我们都是同类。工作的时候，她们一样的认真和专业；当起朋友，她们一样的好玩和体贴；提起家人，她们一样的爱护和孝顺；对于情人，她们一样的温柔和疼惜。性向的差异，只不过为我们的世界绘上更多不同的颜色，又何必苦苦抹去呢？

把衣柜都打开吧，让那道彩虹划出我们的天空。

刊登于《风采》八月刊

若你碰到他

2009-09-04T05:30:00.000-07:00

词/曲/制作/演唱：蔡健雅

就这样吧，若你碰到他。

大学以后

2009-08-16T07:59:00.000-07:00

刚刚完成了大学生涯的最后一份考卷。从那座容纳数千人、走路会有回音的墨尔本皇家展览厅（那是我们的考场，酷吧？）出来后，我很大力地松了一口气，暂且当自己一定会及格。然而，上一刻的舒坦被寒风飕一飕，竟然这么溜走了。下一刻紧追着我屁股打的就只是一道重复了n次的问题：

“到底，应该回去还是留下？”

别逗留了，回去冲凉、吃饭、睡觉。当然不是问这个！

这个困扰了很久的问题是：“到底我应该申请永久居民证，留下来发展，还是回到Tanah tumpahnya darahku？”我想，这应该是海外留学生都常常在考虑的问题吧。通常，只有在两种状况下这个问题不值一提。要嘛，那个人很讨厌马来西亚；要嘛，那个人很讨厌他所在的‘外国’。而我，即爱马来西亚也喜欢墨尔本。

墨尔本和马来西亚就像是一种物质与精神的比较。我曾听无数朋友投诉，在马来西亚根本没有办法存钱。如果你从外地到吉隆坡工作，必须租房子、养车子、给家用，还要配合物价水涨，区区2000令吉起跳的收入只能平衡支出，28岁前甭谈什么买房子和买将来。Pavillion随便逛逛就好。

相反的，在墨尔本工作收入高、福利好，工作逾时文化（OT）也不太盛行，就连寄钱回家兑换率也来得比较值得。虽然纳税较高，但至少能确保它值其所用 – 用于促进公共措施或是协助边缘社群，而非促进贪腐文化或是鼓吹政治闹剧。

更重要的是，在墨尔本背包是用来‘背’的，而在马来西亚背包是用来‘抱’的。在墨尔本市区里走路是件逍遥自在的享受，在马来西亚连呆在家里都要提心吊胆。在墨尔本的公共侧板只要铺上提供的厕纸应该就没问题，在马来西亚即使自己带了再多的厕纸应该都坚持不在外头做大号。

那马来西亚的精神层面呢？

比如，凌晨3点钟还可以待在24小时的Mamak档‘吹水’。比如，椰浆饭是用蕉叶包着的。比如，我说‘Pakcik，你酱都不懂what I mean？’的时候，有人真的知道what I mean。又比如，在这里晒太阳是流汗而不是刺痛的、所谓的下大雨真的是滂沱大雨而不是绵绵细雨。这些都不是什么有深度的精神层面，而是人生而最简单的需求 – 亲切与熟悉。

但所谓的亲切与熟悉，难道就不能在墨尔本慢慢培养，取而代之吗？

电话突然响起。表姐告诉我大姑丈心脏病猝逝。当时，他的家人在韩国旅游，只有一个儿子还留在家里。不，我不是特别的难过，毕竟和大姑丈相处不多。但是，如果那个人不是大姑丈，而是我的婆婆、甚至是我的父母呢？

有些人事物是不能被取代的。我想，我已经决定去留了。

刊登于《风采》7月刊

过不去

2009-08-08T18:03:00.000-07:00

他的心在低号

2009-08-07T14:23:00.000-07:00

他卷缩在墙角身体在叫
把头埋进黑色空隙身体在叫
手脚脸背
成了红与青对决的擂台
一划一痕一瘀一印
赤裸的身体在叫

高跟鞋敲打着没规律的节奏
凌晨4点听见的步履心在低号
往昔的熊抱只剩下威斯基的味道心在低号
那首轻轻哼唱的摇篮曲呢？
一吼一喝一拳一脚
从前的心在低号

好几次他拿着钥匙看着长满杂草的前院
那几次他拿着钥匙望着钢琴上的照片
四，三，二，开了门
一，是仅有的数字。
他放下了钥匙。

他紧紧靠着
冰冷的石灰墙安抚炽热的伤疤
你听见了吗？
他的心在低号

妈妈的乳房

2009-08-03T17:26:00.000-07:00

在书桌的旁边，摆着一个粉红色的水壶。壶盖是按照女性的乳房设计的，曲线很漂亮。从壶口喝水就像是从妈妈的乳头吸允奶水般。

已经很久没有闻到清晨的味道了。星期日上午六时，月亮和星星都还没退下，墨尔本市很冷清。夜夜笙歌的人宿醉未醒，难得休假的人周公有约，我们一行七个女生肆无忌惮地横行街头。街上尽是我们八卦、喧哗和狂笑的回音。

阳光逐渐崭露，我们沿着雅拉河（Yarra River）走向目的地 - 亚历山大花园（Alexandra Garden）。我们报了名参加澳洲各地在5月10日同时举行的Mother’s Day Classic母亲节义跑活动，为乳癌研究筹款。哦不，看我这个死懒猪的样子，当然不是去跑。我们担任那种‘运动量低、贡献率高’的角色 – 志愿工作者。

当我们自以为是早起的鸟儿，原来现场已经有很多人穿着运动衣，整装待发了。有的是一家大小、有的是结伴朋友、有的是公司代表，年龄层覆盖极大，从躺在婴儿车内的1岁小孩到满脸皱纹的80岁老太太都有。根据统计，只是墨尔本区就有大约3万3千人参与活动。

我们被分派的工作是将赞助的礼袋分发给每一位参赛者。志愿工作者当然也会拿到一份，我和朋友们就一副贪小便宜的样子，兴奋地翻着袋子，想看看里头有什么。礼袋中有苹果、果汁、折扣券、预防乳癌册子和那个酷似乳房的水壶。还有一枚粉红色的奖牌，上面有朵精致的花瓣，刻着09’ Mother’s Day Classic，纪念着我们在母亲节这一天作了一件有意义的事。

站在礼袋站看着完成赛程的参赛者，有种分外的感动。他们汗流浃背、呼吸急促，有些手中还握着气喘喷雾剂，脸上却挂着满满的笑容。这么诚恳灿烂的笑容，不是任何利益或权力所堆积出来的，只是纯粹地“我为妈妈做了件好事”。

看着眼前的水壶，我已经不记得那是什么滋味了。只有妈妈会记得乳头被吸允时的疼痛，小孩大都忘了自己和妈妈曾经那么地亲密。但我想妈妈不会介意。她大概只想我们‘做个好人，健康快乐‘吧。

刊登于《风采》七月刊

我也想这样

2009-07-17T20:56:00.000-07:00

走在墨尔本的市集里，会有许多人站着、蹲着、坐着，面前摆着一个盛钱的盒子。

不，他们不是乞丐，他们只是在卖艺。当然也不是在表演少林功夫的铁头功和金刚腿或是电视上常看到的心口碎大石。

全球快餐连锁店霸王麦当劳很聪明地坐落在市集的旁边。在汉堡、薯条和可乐穿梭间，一位年约20岁的白晰女孩常常会站在它的门前。她拥有个稚嫩乖巧的脸蛋，但是却穿得很庞克。牛仔裤搭配着黑色皮夹、1/3的头发染了粉红色、穿戴着粗厚的银饰、再配上一个擦得颇亮的黑色靴子。

当我等待着和她一起摇滚一起High的时候，吉他弦一拨，她竟然唱出怀旧动人的First of May。是喝酒太多的缘故吗？她的嗓子是沧桑沙哑的。又或者，她的外表只是一种武装。我就这样猜测着。

走到市集的另一端，三位皮肤黝黑的中年男士挂着彩色的墨西哥披肩外加个褐色帽子，一位拿着尤克里里（4弦小型吉他）配上口中风琴、一位握着曼陀铃（外形像个拨开的水梨的弦乐）、还有一位手握西班牙响板，三部高低有致的声音融汇出一曲清新和谐的墨西哥民谣。

这些街头艺人总抹着些许的神秘色彩。他们从哪里来？为什么会选择在街头卖艺？这样的生活会苦吗？一天能赚多少钱呢？每次看他们的表演，我总带着这一箩筐的问题回去。不知道自己凭什么可以去问他们那么私人的问题。

市集里熙来攘往。有人停下脚步，望一望他们，就两秒吧，便继续自己的旅程。也真有人懂得欣赏他们的音乐，陪他们笑、陪他们唱、给他们最大的掌声，也会很实际地给钱作为回馈。而有些人，不闻不问。这些街头艺人就像是这个市集里其中一个毫不起眼的布景，小贩尽情叫卖、顾客讨价还价、小孩哭哭闹闹。

街头艺人的周围仿佛有一层隔音玻璃镜，哪怕世界继续纷扰，耳里只听到那熟悉的音乐飘扬萦绕。

刊登于《风采》六月刊

让爱转动整个宇宙

2009-06-19T17:45:00.000-07:00

词：陈乐融曲：陈国华

老天給人們偶爾一些痛
凡人就得開始做功課
胸襟越磨越寬就越自由
腳步也會變得更從容
大地像母親伸出一雙手
願意承受這麼多負荷
徬徨的人生不知往哪走
記住這裡永遠還有我陪你渡過

讓愛轉動整個宇宙
把我當成你的港口
你不必擁有地球
就可以擁有我
最真摯無悔的承諾

讓愛轉動整個宇宙
把我當成你的港口
你不必擁有地球
就可以擁有我
最熟悉溫暖的笑容

心不是沒有天崩地裂過
曾掉進沒有人安慰的黑洞
年華過幾個秋慶幸我們還有夢
我們都還這樣勇敢的唱歌

A-MIT

2009-06-17T13:32:00.000-07:00

每个人心里都有一个阿密特。
你准备让他分裂而生了吗？

镜子爆裂后分生。

詞：姚若龍
曲：鄭楠
制作人：阿弟仔

一個我像不會累一直往前
一個我動彈不得傷心欲絕
我不確定幾個我住在心里面
偶爾像敵人偶爾像姐妹

一個我在網路上朋友一堆
一個我在房間里獨自面對
灰色的音樂塞滿黑夜 High的像麻醉
好讓翻攪的胃安靜一點忘了全世界

分裂前的熱淚分裂后的冷眼
越愛誰越防備像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎分裂后的假面
不快樂不傷悲情緒埋藏成了地雷等待爆裂

一個我相信用心會被感覺
一個我大喊真心會被欺騙
開始的熱烈不停奉獻后來剩決裂
謊言吞噬了心帶來刺痛撕裂的蛻變

分裂前的熱淚分裂后的冷眼
越愛誰越防備像只脆弱的刺猬
分裂中的心碎分裂后的假面
不快樂不傷悲情緒埋藏成了地雷等待爆裂

Prose Poem 1 - I Should Have Treated You Better

2009-06-15T17:28:00.000-07:00

It has been three years, dear. I still remember you were my only companion when I first came here. For the first few nights, I hid in the quilt listening to your whisper. The Unchained Melody calmed my fear. You have never stopped singing since then, with love and tender.

I know it wasn’t easy. I was unreasonably unpredictable. I lingered on you so much during autumn and desolated you in July winter. You, in the corner of the room, gave me a sorrowful glance. No, I did not forget the sleepless nights you spent with me – enduring deadlines and Red Bulls. It’s just that, I did not know how to return your favour.

Was it revenge? It was on Bourke you disappeared. Then you came back with scars and dirt. You were so cool, ignoring my care and tears. No matter how I pled and bent, you remained in your upright posture. And showed me your blue screen of death.

说梦话

2009-06-03T20:18:00.000-07:00

有一天我睡醒的时候，室友花小姐告诉我：“你昨天睡觉的时候在讲一大堆什么？”

哈？！我在睡觉啊！我说了什么？！

我被吓到了。

虽然她说，除了前面那几个字，后面的都是模模糊糊的一团外星语，而且我睡觉时说话比平时还快。Phew,好险！

但，我还很怕！

A Bu Den...自己不知道自己曾经讲过什么，或是即将在睡梦中讲些什么，不是一件很可怕的事情吗？

我当然没有做过什么见不得光的亏心事。较轻微的背叛出卖或是较严重的杀人放火至今为止都还没有出现在我的个人行为记录簿里头（别误会，这只是一种说法。我不会拿着一本纸和笔记录自己的所有行为啦！）。谎话是说过几篇，通常都是白色的。好事也没有做很多，只是捐过一点钱、扶过盲人过马路、鼓励过...嘘！回归正传！

好，即使没有做过什么亏心事，但人总有不想让别人知道的事情吧？它或许不是可耻的，可能只有一点小尴尬。它或许不是什么大件事，只是想保留给自己的小故事。如果发梦的时候无端端BLAH出来给别人听到，怎么办？！

也没能怎么办，只能认倒霉咯。但求听到的人演技到家，假装听不到，嘴巴也闭的紧紧的。

但是，如果你不小心透露的不是自己的事情，而是一位挚友要求你替他好好保守的秘密呢？那是要那位朋友认倒霉吗？谁叫他交了个会说梦话的朋友。嗯，你和知己分享心事之前，不会问他会不会说梦话吧？问了他也未必知道（2个星期前的我不知道原来我说了21年梦话）。

这还不是最坏的想像。

人的大脑到底怎么运作，我们知道的非常有限，更甭谈有效控制。酒醉的时候会胡言乱语，完全不跟逻辑或事实跑，那睡觉说梦话应该也会有这样的状况吧！

比如说，我梦到自己和朋友遇上了洪水，大喊：”阿花！走啦你！快点走！” 和我同房的花小姐当然不会看到我的梦境，必然有她自己的另外一番诠释。循着‘日有所思。夜有所梦’的思考，她或许会认为我嫌她这人很烦，要赶她走，但平时不敢告诉她，结果都在睡梦中透露出来了。想太多是不是？但是又何奈？人就爱这样。

结果搞得朋友关系疏离，冤枉啊！

或许我从小就一个人睡吧，从来都没有面对这样的问题。如果要长期和一个人同房，就像是被看透透、没私隐，好阴森。到底私隐的价值在哪里，我没有办法衡量。它不是一种物质的存在，只是一种‘我现在很安全’以及‘我还是我’的感受。

当然，阴森不是指花小姐。我们还不算长期啦。

Villaneille 2 - Once a Month

2009-05-22T02:13:00.000-07:00

Mark down the dates
in your diary.
Serve her chocolates.

She loves Latin
but for those days she's not ready,
mark down the dates.

Oh not tangerines!
When she becomes bossy,
serve her chocolates.

You can barely imagine,
it's like a punch in your belly.
Mark down the dates.

She'll lose her grin.
She might even get dizzy.
Serve her chocolates.

No matter how keen
don't ask for lingerie.
Mark down the dates,
serve her chocolates.

Stress Relief

2009-05-18T06:26:00.000-07:00

为了工作课业心思烦乱？
夜已深却无法好好入眠？
记得使用传统密制良方
周星星！

Haiku

2009-05-17T19:33:00.000-07:00

A Japanese form of poetry. Consists of three lines and 17 syllables (5-7-5). It changes a bit in English though.

This is my first attempt. I try to interrelate 3 haikus here:

Ruthless glare -
carton crumpled hands
two dollars.

Two dollars
thrown in rusty bowl -
a day's meal.

A day's meal
beside Knox City -
ruthless glare.

People like Us

2009-05-07T12:48:00.000-07:00

Who don't read newspaper everyday
Who know neither Nizar nor Sivakumar
Who spend most of the time studying and partying
Who have our lives focused in another country
Are not interested in BN or Pakatan, at all.

But we don't feel comfortable when gatherings aren't allowed
We fear dark nights without candles
We hate being unable to speak
We are disgusted when wearing black has to go into jail
And we have to rethink is it a place to be.

A more responsible citizen I shall be
YOU!
Who snatch my right to dress in black
I'll vote you out.
We will vote you out.

My Greatest Fear

2009-04-20T06:16:00.000-07:00

I knocked
at the door. In her uncombed hair and
soy sauce stained apron, she looked
surprised.
I smelt Bak Kut Teh. “Who are you
looking for?” she asked
peeping
from the door gap. I held her hands,
fingers crossed.

Fingers crossed
on one hand, a Hello Kitty bag
on the other, She walked me to the school gate
every morning.

I held her hands, fingers crossed.
Led her to the couch
where she read newspaper and had a pot of Chinese tea.
Flipping through the photo album, I pointed at
a photo
set in a playground, she was holding
a little girl’s hand, fingers crossed.
“I’m looking for them.” I said.

I knocked at the door.
“Sorry, my girl has gone to school.”
For once
I looked familiar to her.
“Would you want me to give her a call?”
Politely, she asked. I shook,
passed her
a dozen of egg tarts.
“Your daughter asked me to send you these”
“Oh my girl, she has not visited me for months!”
She exclaimed with joy
and tears. I prepared her the tarts
at the dining table where we had
countless dinners
where we quarreled
about my studies,
where we gossiped
about the divorced aunty,
where
she forgot who I am.

I came every day.

I knocked at the door.
Again.
Once more.
Took out the keys from my bag
and unlocked the door, all by
myself.
Someone left the photo album on the dining table.
A mom and her girl, fingers crossed.

Villanelle

2009-04-17T17:53:00.000-07:00

This form of poetry is very fun!

Try it out!

Rules:
1. 6 stanzas, 19 lines.
2. A1 and A2 keep appearing in the poetry.
3. a has to rhyme with a. Similarly, b has to rhyme with b.

This is an experiment I did with a classmate (Basically we took turns 'filling the blank'):

A1 Pretty woman walking down the street
b with a chocolate ice-cream she bangs in
A2 ugly man with two big feet

a Two big feet and a stained shirt
b in the pocket a butterfly hair pin
A1 Pretty woman walking down the street

a It's not a good time to flirt
b He still has to go to gym
A2 Ugly man with two big feet

a He says to her, his voice is curt
b "Your sleeves are like the golden fish fins"
A1 Pretty woman walking down the street

a She hates fish and he feels hurt
b He has no idea about his previous life's sin
A2 Ugly man with two big feet

a The ice-cream now lies in the the dirt
b He stands alone in the wind
A1 Pretty woman walking down the street
A2 Ugly man with two big feet

Ok, I know. RANDOM.

2009-04-13T19:25:00.000-07:00

只能遥望,却无法分担.
望一切安好.

Here in My Home

2009-04-04T17:43:00.000-07:00

Just 4.25 minutes
It can be done
while you're taking
the oath. I'll tell you
what it's all about
One love undivided
that's what it's
all about. Malaysia and Malaysians
There’s just one hope
here in my heart
here in my home

Just 4.25 minutes
Switch on the player
while you're taking a shower
One love undivided
That's what it's
all about. Malaysia and Malaysians
If politics can't solve
Give way to arts
here in your heart
here in your home

Malaysian, Yi Hui Tan

P/S:

Rap Translation -

[Bahasa Malaysia]
Bertubi asakan berkurun lamanya
Hati ke depan mencari yang sayang

translation:
Years of fears and years of tribulation
The heart keeps searching for that endless devotion

[Mandarin]
手牵手大家一起走，我代表华人开口未来就没有丢走

phonetics:
shou qian shou da jia yi qi zou
wo dai biao hua ren kai kou wei lai jiu mei you diu zou

translation:
Hand in hand we’ll march like blood brothers
I speak for my people we’ll find peace forever

[Tamil]
phonetics:
inthe payanam payanamm yen vettri thaagam
anthee kaana kaalam naam vetri raagam...nanba nanba

translation:
May the road ahead quench my thirst for success
May the road behind echo a song of the blessed

[English]
Yes I feel it in my bones and I will let it be known
No matter where I roam this is home sweet home Sing!

Words & Music by Pete Teo
featuring rap by KLG Sqwad & Altimet
by Malaysian Artistes for Unity

TADA Radio

2009-03-31T06:22:00.000-07:00

In the past few weeks, time slot for KITSCH has been ~~sacrificed for~~ replaced by this:

I am TADA!

So KITSCH's readers, when there's a lack of updates in this blog, you can find me there. :P

It's a multilingual (mandarin, canto, and english) podcast center.

More visitors = more sponsors = more $$ = we can expand the business!!

Support support yea! ------>

Oh yea, if you've any comments or just finding somewhere to spam, kindly visit our forum. ^^

ARIGATO!

Free Verse

2009-03-30T13:16:00.000-07:00

No metrical system. No rules. Kind of hard for Asians like us who're used to obey rules. XD

Line breaks are the defining feature of this form of poetry. It does not break according to conventional punctuations. Instead, it breaks if there's a hesitation of thought, or to double the meaning of the word, or to further emphasize the word, or plainly for the sake of the visual on the page. Weird huh? But fascinating.

Here goes my first free verse:)

TV was playing Hong Kong
drama. The living room always had
kids, aunties, and gossips.
The lead actor, in tuxedo,
slapped his mom. Tears rolled
out of orbit. Aunty Lina
sat silent and still.
Silent and still,
her boy left last week.
Silent
and still, she did not ring
him. Silent and
still, he did not tell
where he's gone.

It's bulletin
time. Didn't matter
to her, how many relatives came.
Celebration of birthday;
Invitation to wedding ceremony;
Delivery of
baby. Where has he gone? In the cradle,
he slept silent and still.
Silent and still,
thumb leaned on lips cosily.
Silent
and still, she stayed awake
looking at the gem of
love. Silent and
still, he did not tell
where he's gone.

1st Poetry Attempt

2009-03-18T06:59:00.000-07:00

Call me BOLD & BRAVE! I enrolled in 'Poetry' as one of my last semester subjects. Something I have no idea even if it's in mandarin.

We had a tutorial about Sonnet. So we spent 15 minutes on writing our own Sonnet - the 14 lines alien - and here goes mine:

Mr. Christ walked into the tunnel
Cats' scratches, dogs' barks, that's all I heard
He screamed, he cried, he wept, he startled
Out from the dark hole wiping his bloody beard

In his eyes, there's no fear
Pulling the tails all along the rail
In his eyes, there's no gentle
Kicking the bodies to unblock his trail

Tripped over a stone, he knelt down
Shall he get back to the picturesque town
Picking pebbles from the ground
Playfully lifting his sister's gown

Never be lied you are sealed off danger
Tunnel-trained Mr. Satan is the true ranger

Jackman O Jackman

2009-02-24T12:32:00.000-08:00

Give me a reason to not love this guy.

港澳手记2

2009-02-21T15:17:00.000-08:00

香港人迟早会溺死在消费的漩涡中。
啊不，
他们还有那蟑螂般打不死的香港精神。

港澳手记 1

2009-02-21T11:07:00.000-08:00

澳门，
走在一条钢索上，
一端是纸醉金迷，另一端是淳朴风情。
或拿着LV、或握着借据、或拎着钜记手信，
只于转念一夕。

Boleh Land, a fan of Adidas

2009-02-06T09:19:00.000-08:00

Our ancestors never thought it could be realized when independence was once a far far away dream in a far far away kingdom.

1957 has taught us NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.

And, we've been embracing it till today.

Murderer does not need to be put on trial.

Money is used to earn votes.

Kidnapping is an ideal way of taking possession.

Frogs decide the future of a state.

Najis (it means SHIT in Malay) is thrown everywhere, causing chaos and stench.

Apa lagi yang tak boleh?

Malaysia Boleh.

Google Latitude, it's too close dude!

2009-02-04T11:27:00.000-08:00

Google Latitude - yet another privacy-intruding Google Map feature - starts its operation today.

It can be used on your mobile or your computer to locate someone. Yea, someone - your friend, family, colleagues, or rivals - who opted in to Latitude.

A great tool for control freaks heh?

Google team said, "So now you can do things like see if your spouse is stucked in traffic on the way home, notice that a buddy is in town for the weekend, or take comfort in knowing that a loved one's flight landed safely, despite bad weather."

Which means you are not able to tell your boss you are stucked in traffic while you are still brushing your teeth at home. Which means you can't say "Sorry dear, I'm in a meeting" while you are busy partying with your friends. Which meansYOU ARE UNDER SURVEILLANCE.

Come on, there's nothing wrong to be honest to your wife and be responsible to your job.

Come on! Everyone needs a break! Telling a small or white lie isn't so bad right? Sometimes, it's not about being truthful or not. It's about "Oh please!STOP BUGGING ON ME!"

Uneasiness.

So for each person, you can choose to share your best available location or your city-level location, or you can hide. Everything is under your control.

People always lose control when they overestimate their control force and underestimate the anti-force. Imagine yourself telling your girlfriend, "sorry but I can't share my location with you." I dare not imagine what will come next. Prepare to get in a quarrel debating how much you love her.

Or, when your boss asks you to switch on the Latitude so that he can increase effeciency (the actual reason is to make sure you are not having a coffee in Starbucks at 3.30pm) would you ever dare to say NO? No.

So yea, you areNOT IN CONTROL.

Ah ha, another fun function here."For instance, let's say you are in Rome. Instead of having your approximate location detected and shared automatically, you can manually set your location for elsewhere — perhaps a visit to Niagara Falls ."

Now I don't understand the usage of Latitude.

Oh one last thing. You are able to hide yourself from another user, but not from Google. Will they ever pass on the information to the government like how they dealt with Chinese Government regarding the cyber dissidents?

I'm too insignificant to worry about this issue la. Anwar, take care lo.

As Simple As This

2009-02-01T13:33:00.000-08:00

I've never loved CNY so much like this year.

Nah, not that I've got more angpaus or won more in mahjongs.

Day 29 before CNY, also known as 小年夜, my mom brought some clothes for my cousins in grandma's house. Then we decided to have a 'costume-party-like reunion dinner', which meant all of us had to wear the clothes with that particular brand.

Yea yea... I know... WULIAO (is 'lame' the right translation?)!!! Isn't it great when you are able to wuliao with your family members like how you do with your friends?

p/s: I'm extremely sorry to my dear cousins who have posed in their best smile. I only needed your... erm... BOOBS. And guys, you missed out the fun.

Present you my dearest family! My grandma has three sons... So 1, 2, 3, yeap! Three tables!

I reckon they are not good posers. As you can see, the shyness is in the genes.

K. Fast forward to CNY Day 2. All the aunties came back. So yea, more cousins, nieces, and nephews.

After peng-ing and gong-ing with my cousins, we were gathered in the living room to witness Tan Family very own historical moments.

Ah Heong gor gor from Singapore played a VCD. "Gong gong!" shouted Ah Keng jie jie. Looking at the right hand corner of the video, it's 1996.

I could still remember the days that I greeted my grandfather who was making rafia strings on his ratan chair in front of the house. I was very short - 140cm - back then (not like I'm very tall now). I'd call him 'gong gong' and he'd ask me 'jiak ba bui'. I wish I could speak better Hokkien. It has been 2 years since I last visited him in Nirvana.

The camera was panned to the living room. It was almost the same as 2009. Green marble floor, telephone with pens and notepads to take vegetable orders, an altar against the wall, and a 24 inch TV. Oh, the sofa was replaced with new ones as children loved torturing the sofa by jumping/climbing/hopping up and down.

Ah MM - my aunty (大伯母) came in from the kitchen. She was trying to cover her face as well as the camera. She's so nervous that she could not decide which to cover. As I mentioned, shyness is in the genes. She was the mother, the lady boss, the chef, the babysitter... literally everything of the family. She has gone. Glad to see her on TV.

We couldn't stop laughing throughout the video. All our stupid, childish, and naughty moments were caught. A 9 years old girl was encouraging her younger brother to fight with another cousin. "Hit him! Hit him!" I said. Now I know, my hand being bitten or my hair being pulled by Guo Yi were retributions.

Then, another devil came upon. He was pointing my cousins and yelled, "this is 38 gong and this is 38 po", reminding us my elder brother was a big bully. Those being bullied were in the living room too. Haha, it's time to take revenge guys.

The younger generation - most of my nephews and nieces - were the non-participants of 1996. But they enjoyed the show very much. "See, that's your mommy! Gosh, so young!". "Was I in the tummy?" he asked. "No, your parents were still playing hide-and-seek at that time." All burst into laugther.

Hey, start recording your special moments from now on. Think about the idea of sharing your youth with your children years later, how wonderful.

All enjoying 'Tan Family in 1996'. Happiness is just as simple as this.

虾皮牛耳！！！

2009-01-27T06:26:00.000-08:00

恭喜发财！新年快乐！

在此送上马来西亚寰宇电视(ASTRO)的当家花旦萧慧敏主演的新年MV - 《庆祝》！首担MV女主角，她即迅速获得了影后的衔头，前途不可限量！

注：文中“影后”意指影她的背后。

My Radio 3

2009-01-24T13:30:00.000-08:00

It has been a long time since the 'room' last updated. The current playlist has no specific theme. It's just some random songs that I've been listening for N times recently.

1. Bye Bye Mariah Carey
Introduced by Lyssa.
A note to those who have lost their love ones:
'Lift ya head to the sky, we will never say bye.'

2. 写给自己的歌黄义达
The cuti-cuti guys love this song. Wonder why.
Maybe it's emo enough for the currently-single guys （Derek excluded) while encouraging enough for them to be a man? XD
我一个人走一个人看透一个人受
路我自己选择我一个人走

3. 最幸福的事梁文音
Listen to her voice and look at the video. It tells all.

4. 属于梁静茹
Ok ok... I know lots of ppl are crazy over this song. Esp when it comes in a bundle with the drama 《幸福的抉择》. Nah... I haven't seen the drama as the pace is too SLOOOWWW for me.
Anyway, my friend has been asking
‘我坚持的，就值得坚持吗？’
The answer is in the song too.
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们还要努力
May you be blessed with happiness.

5. 没有如果梁静茹
Despite the copyright debate, I like this song!
Fish is exploring her voice.
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当藉口
那是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

Hope you'll like it.=)

Art of Hugging

2009-01-18T14:23:00.000-08:00

Hug of friends is like saying 'take care buddy'

Hug of gf is like saying 'Can't live without you'

Hug of parents is 'Don't worry about me. I'm a man now.'

Quoted from a friend in msn.

I'll try fulfilling my promise. :)

A Delayed Response

2009-01-18T14:15:00.000-08:00

Nah, neither could I.

I was talking to mien in the car on the 5th hour of year 2009, about how impossible it is to live those years again. Then I looked back to my posts in 2007 and 2008. Again, they kept rambling about how hard to believe. To believe again.

Yea, I have equated the courage to believe with the recur to past. False maths.

Believe is something I, or maybe us, (still) strongly hold, just that it takes a different process. 5 years ago, we drew an overly definite line between things to believe and things not to believe. For eg, statement comes out from org. A can be trusted while those from org. B must be doubted. Or, people and thoughts that support our ideology are great whereas those against are shit. (hah, maybe ideology is too grand a word used but I can't find a better one to describe our near-extremism.)

The line was scrapped off all of sudden. We were all adrift, struggling to grasp a buoy in the sea. 'How to judge' is a question we asked most as our initial judgement scheme lost its credit.

We have found ours isn't? We analyse before we believe. We are ready to challenge what used to be right and rethink what used to be wrong. We have our values and we know which to hold and which can be given second thoughts. We know we can't give in all but we'll try giving the enough amount. We are heading towards the balance between rationality and sensibility. Or maybe, these are all yet to be achieved. They might not be the right path, but they're the chosen path.

We've never changed in believing. We changed the way of believing. So, keep it up my friend.

震撼教育

2009-01-07T05:48:00.000-08:00

年迈教育者对女生上下其手、吻脸咬手，其一。

为取得新闻，设圈套陷老人家于不义，其二。

要求记者为了采访而牺牲尊严色相，其三。

尽做这一切还能将其作为沾沾自喜的作品，其四。

这是媒体行业的真实面？

还是纯属八卦杂志的黑暗面？

若为八卦杂志的手法，那还可以到别处去。

若全媒体都免不了类似手段，那又能往何处去？

身体发肤受之父母？

2008-12-08T06:33:00.000-08:00

最近题材匮乏，

而听闻朋友就是拿来利用的，

所以我还是决定出卖了一下。

只是一下。

这是一位小美女的成长过程。

废话少讲，

请睇片！

[caption id="attachment_374" align="alignnone" width="408" caption="我心头本战战兢兢美容姐姐画耳点金"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_376" align="alignnone" width="408" caption="要耳环是吗...我天天酱点一点就好咯，不用弄一个洞啦..."][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_377" align="alignnone" width="408" caption="美容姐姐，射准一点，看着我的脑啊..."][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_378" align="alignnone" width="408" caption="啊哈哈，哈哈，不痛，不痛，啊哈哈"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_379" align="alignnone" width="408" caption="还来啊？！？！"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_380" align="alignnone" width="408" caption="撩耳朵的小美女诞生啦！"][/caption]

哎哟，

不小心出卖了六下。

嘻嘻。

Kee Siao

2008-12-07T17:24:00.000-08:00

Whoooooopsss...
Haven't been updating since er herm, ok, LONG LONG AGO.
Why not?

Firstly, I have nothing to be emo-ed about.

Eh, blogging is not about self-indulgent okay?
You don't have to be ultra-emotional to write a good post yea?

So here comes the second reason: The influx of social activities has overwhelmed my thoughts.
No thinking no posting.

Oh yea? Your blog does not show that you have done a lot of thinking okay??? Janganlah perasan.
Just post about the activities you have done is already an effort.

Please refer to my previous posts about my activities.
I.E. the Mount Dandenong day trip and the Philip Island Post Production Camp.
Each of them has only one episode and they are meant to be continued but there is (still) no sign showing that their lives will be sustained.
You know la, it's not good to whet someone's appetite yet not satisfying it.
Hence I decided not to start AT ALL.

Ah ha!
Then you have something to post!
Continue your unfinished posts!

Hah... aiyo... just refer to Erick's blog la.
He has written a great one. I don't want to be repetitive...
Aiya okayla.

I'M LAZY!!!!

E生

2008-11-15T08:17:00.000-08:00

他永远都不能当歌神，

因为神是无法像顽童般玩闹人间的。

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=9zA5Ri5U_Fg]

RIP

2008-11-14T03:17:00.000-08:00

自殺身亡，

永遠的逃亡，

你卻沒見到留下來的人有多么茫然。

責備自己的疏忽？

讓你走上不歸路？

不，

是你拒絕被守護。

還想喝那杯潤喉茶嗎？

礎寧，

回來吧。

21st: Big Spring Awards

2008-11-13T20:53:00.000-08:00

Best Video

Donald Duck Selamat Hari Jadi /performed by Loh Lei Jin

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=1IPp0PlBfJA]

Most Humourous Video

Spring Canto Bday Song /performed by Betina

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=S-RoReR3GXg&feature=channel]

Biggest Effort Video

Lovely Voice from Hawaii /performed by J Gan

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=szPV6h7htKw&feature=channel]

Lifetime Achievement Award

NATASHA YEOW XIN CI!!!

21st: Show Off

2008-11-13T20:38:00.000-08:00

[caption id="attachment_328" align="alignnone" width="407" caption="Published by 上輩子欠了陳奕卉 Publishing Co."][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_329" align="alignnone" width="300" caption="奕"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_330" align="alignnone" width="300" caption="卉"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_331" align="alignnone" width="300" caption="豬"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_332" align="alignnone" width="300" caption="你"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_333" align="alignnone" width="240" caption="生"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_334" align="alignnone" width="300" caption="日"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_335" align="alignnone" width="225" caption="快"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_336" align="alignnone" width="225" caption="樂"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_337" align="alignnone" width="407" caption="Acknowledgements"][/caption]

Acknowledgements:

Editor

Natasha Yeow

Creative Directors

Sherman Lee

Cheng Min Teo

Coordinator

Corey Chan

Contributors

Hui Mei Siow

Boon Min Loong

Yao Hsien Lau

Lyssa Loh

Frances Gan

Charmaine Cheah

Corey Chan

Livia Chan

21st: An Inspiring Present

2008-11-13T19:53:00.000-08:00

Parcel from UK has finally reached.

[caption id="attachment_324" align="alignnone" width="407" caption="Athena"][/caption]

"Be a journalist who tells us the unknown stories

hidden beneath the masked surface,

and strives to come as close as possible to the heart of the word.

Voice out the unheard."

- Qian

21st: A Reflective Post

2008-11-13T19:24:00.000-08:00

Birthday was always nothing to me. Let alone the age.

I was selfish.

I forgot to remember:

Those who spent time celebrating it with me;

Those who bothered writing me a birthday message;

Those who called from miles to greet me;

And those who gave me the best present they could.

Yes, they remembered me but I didn't respond reciprocally.

I told my friend at the first hour of my 21st:"What's big deal with 21? I don't see a difference in myself."

Within 72 hours I changed my mind.

My 21st taught me how to appreciate birthday.

Appreciate it for reminding me how lucky I am.

Yes, how lucky I am to have all of you.

如果没有你

2008-11-08T08:08:00.000-08:00

袁惟仁说：“唱歌是说话的延伸，尾音是情感的延伸。”

应该说：“文音是情感的延伸。”

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=g1V_XEXPidY]

Wind Blew Hard Hard

2008-11-08T04:30:00.000-08:00

Yeap, everything turned out pretty good.

Obama won.

1st African American US President.

He said, change has come to America.

I don't know how much could this change affect Malaysia,

Maybe it'll turn out like some pessimistic predictions - All Malaysians will achieve equal opportunities when we have our 44th prime minister. Oh well, maybe that's being optimisitc?

But at least the change will have some effects on the world given that US is such a powerful nation. Awareness of equality regardless of ethnicities will be heigthened. More hopes generated perhaps. Less war too.

Raja Petra is released.

Although ISA has not been abolished, this case has shown separation of powers is possible in Malaysia.

It's also a sign of liberty improvement.

Guys, enjoy blogging!

Truth found.

Conscience and courage, you have them.

Good luck.

Finally,

2 assignments down!

I'll like to

Thank Sheryl for the info. Although I didn't really utilize them, I really appreciate the time you spent helping me.

Thank Liang Jie for editing. You're super effecient. You used merely 2 hours to make a 1 day work perfect. I feel mentally imbalance now. =.=

Thank Chengmin for the coffee and breakfast. They warmed me.

Thank Nat and Chand for the offer. I know I always have you guys.

Thank all who have said good luck or gambate or jiayou to me. I'm mentally STRONG!!!

My Radio 2

2008-11-02T14:48:00.000-08:00

“喂，你好！”

“你想将歌曲点给谁啊？”

“我想点给我的朋友。她叫青翠。她现在在英国。我们可能很久都见不到面了。”

“哦，她听到你今天点给她的歌一定很开心。有没有什么想告诉她？”

“呃...我想...我希望她能在英国好好生活，现在天气很冷，多吃点，多穿点，不要为了省钱刻薄自己。”

“好，谢谢这位听众！”

“诶诶诶，可不可以有一些比较High的歌曲啊？她比较喜欢。”

“好！没问题。拜拜！”

1. 五月天   爆肝
当你大唱
“谁怕爆肝！谁管爆肝！好样好胆好骇好爽又好勇敢！”
保证你会像唱
“一颗心扑通扑通的狂跳，一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉！”
一样HIGH HIGH HIGH!!!

2.古巨基   啦啦
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
如果你听歌的时候爱注意背景的乐器弹奏，
对吉他的声音又情有独钟，
不妨去听听Guitar Fever这张专辑。
那个滑弦和Plucking的声音是我的最爱。

3.萧敬腾   Blues
用摇滚的咆哮要求play the right kind of blues
这只黑蜘蛛杀伤力真的很强

4.庭竹   喜欢你
这位创作女生不是很红，
但她的偶像是张雨生，
让我对她多了点兴趣。
她有着松松的咬字和不俗套的曲风，
大力推荐。

5.ALin   做我自己
专辑名称是天生歌姬。
她是。

作末这个星期只有五首歌的？

摆明偷懒啦！

唉哟，要考试了嘛～

Cheh！

你有花多少时间在功课上哦？

今天跑去做什么犯罪的事哈？

...

再见老师

2008-11-01T10:59:00.000-07:00

80's babies 的毕业飲歌。

多得哥哥提醒啊！
[audio http://h1.ripway.com/yihui/zaijianlaoshi.mp3]

One Fine Day

2008-10-31T06:33:00.000-07:00

The Honours student has finished her 70-pages-thesis and it's time for party.

The busy biatch who had a free day decided to join her friend's joy.

The lazy bum who has to complete 8000 words in two weeks ditched her lecture for the sinful event.

SINFUL #1

[caption id="attachment_284" align="alignnone" width="285" caption="CALORIES"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_285" align="alignnone" width="285" caption="CALORIES"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_286" align="alignnone" width="285" caption="CALORIES"][/caption]

[caption id="attachment_287" align="alignnone" width="285" caption="BODY FAT"][/caption]

SINFUL #2

PHD-to-be: 3 jumpers + 2 jeans = AUD $178

Busy Biatch: 1 jacket + 1 summer dress + 1 shirt + 1 skirt = +- AUD $40

Fanjian-lazy-bum: 2 collar shirts + 1 long sleeve shirt + = AUD $25

SINFUL #3

Under the pressure of conscience, lazy bum went to her 2 hours lecture.

Almost fell asleep. Thanks to Castro Mocha.

Then, all of them had Freddo's ice-cream.

Oh no, calories again.

Thanks anyway, I love durian and roche!

童年的声音

2008-10-29T18:38:00.000-07:00

刚刚在大街上嚷唱着：

“太阳公公起床了...小慈早！小立好！我们开始拍拖了～”

大家都笑成一团，只是笑法不一样而已（有人肆无忌惮地狂笑、有人很善良地偷笑、当然还有人尴尬地笑：P）。

这份欢笑，除了来自作弄朋友的爽快，也来自我们对原曲的熟悉感。

它，是我们共同的回忆，

属于80‘s babies 的童年。

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=i9LcUrd0OGA&feature=related]

年代久远，画面模糊，敬请见谅。
欲更精彩，请擅改歌词。

My Radio 1

2008-10-27T03:58:00.000-07:00

隔壁的小房间里，
是我最近聆听的歌曲。
是啦，我就是自以为音乐品味不错，
就是很想把自己喜欢的音乐推荐给各位。XD
就成全一下我嘛，
听听我们有没有同一种调调。

1.五月天生存以上生活以下
收录于他们的最新作品《后青春期的诗》。
又是阿信包办词曲。
我很喜欢歌名，它很成功地表达了歌曲的精髓。
不像一些歌名，只是抽出那个副歌中最常用的词就敷衍了事。

2.潘嘉丽限时的遗忘
要当个勇敢女生就必须剪短发，然后运用咬字硬朗、语句尾端加停顿的孙燕姿唱腔？
这首歌还是很好听啦（因为我稀饭孙燕姿:P），
而潘嘉丽唱功还是毋庸置疑，
只是真的是时候确立定位了。

3.蔡健雅 Blower's Daughter
听这首歌，总让心揪着。
以下是原唱者Damien Rice的版本。
[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=8ThuXEDvCZk]

4.DNR Talk to Me / Ice-Cream
好，我承认，
会注意到听这首歌只因为它是《家好月圆》的插曲。
哎呀，又想到林峰和钟嘉欣的画面了。

5.Daniel Powter Whole World Around
他被称为城市琴人，
他有阅读障碍，根本没法解析乐谱。
可是他却用自己的方式写出一首首慰籍人心的作品。
他因为有怯场问题而放弃一次又一次的发片机会。
然而现在37岁的他却在自由地在钢琴上、舞台上游走。
感动我的，不只是他的音乐。

6.周杰伦乔克叔叔
以下附上陶子的说法：
“比如說世界上本來沒有牛肉麵
老王用他被雷打到的天才創作了牛肉麵後人群起效尤
然後你說呦老王你只會煮牛肉麵ㄚ
不然你希望老王再繼續發明甜不辣麻辣鍋或是蜂蜜蛋糕嗎？”
对于周董的歌曲，就是酱啦。

7.戴佩妮我和你的那些年
Penny又一新作。
Puhleezzzz...你几时出实体专辑啊？
要一次过听啦，酱一首一首来很吊瘾咯！

8.神木与瞳武装的蔷薇
黄美珍的低音、中音、高音
一次享受个够！
原来赖铭伟的Rap也几酷下。

9.林宥嘉眼色
对了，
林宥嘉就是要唱这种迷迷幻幻神神秘秘的歌。
陈奕迅，不如你就唱粤语版的啦？

10.郭采洁 I Need U
本以为又是另一个走可爱路线的偶像剧美眉，
哎哟，
原来她的声音还蛮清新自然爽快的。

2008-10-21T19:01:00.000-07:00

Thanks.

I feel safe.

It Sucks to be Me

2008-10-19T15:25:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, let's aim this as our next musical.

Avenue Q!

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=PJCU4xf5IJE]

New Function Testing

2008-10-19T04:30:00.000-07:00

[polldaddy poll=1016211]

2008-10-15T11:03:00.000-07:00

Neither guilty nor angry.

Well, maybe a bit sleepy?

Ah Duh~~

Eat slowly.

No one is interested in your cake.

Let's mourn the paranoids

龙应台目送

2008-10-13T17:28:00.000-07:00

华安上小学第一天，我和他手牵着手，穿过好几条街，到维多利亚小学。九月初，家家户户院子里的苹果和梨树都缀满了拳头大小的果子，枝丫因为负重而沉沉下垂，越出了树篱，勾到过路行人的头发。

很多很多的孩子，在操场上等候上课的第一声铃响。小小的手，圈在爸爸的、妈妈的手心里，怯怯的眼神，打量着周遭。他们是幼稚园的毕业生，但是他们还不知道一个定律：一件事情的毕业，永远是另一件事情的开启。

铃声一响，顿时人影错杂，奔往不同方向，但是在那么多穿梭纷乱的人群里，我无比清楚地看着自己孩子的背影──就好象在一百个婴儿同时哭声大作时，你仍旧能够准确听出自己那一个的位置。华安背着一个五颜六色的书包往前走，但是他不断地回头；好象穿越一条无边无际的时空长河，他的视线和我凝望的眼光隔空交会。

我看着他瘦小的背影消失在门里。

十六岁，他到美国作交换生一年。我送他到机场。告别时，照例拥抱，我的头只能贴到他的胸口，好象抱住了长颈鹿的脚。他很明显地在勉强忍受母亲的深情。

他在长长的行列里，等候护照检验；我就站在外面，用眼睛跟着他的背影一寸一寸往前挪。终于轮到他，在海关窗口停留片刻，然后拿回护照，闪入一扇门，倏乎不见。

我一直在等候，等候他消失前的回头一瞥。但是他没有，一次都没有。

现在他二十一岁，上的大学，正好是我教课的大学。但即使是同路，他也不愿搭我的车。即使同车，他戴上耳机──只有一个人能听的音乐，是一扇紧闭的门。有时他在对街等候公车，我从高楼的窗口往下看：一个高高瘦瘦的青年，眼睛望向灰色的海；我只能想象，他的内在世界和我的一样波涛深邃，但是，我进不去。一会儿公车来了，挡住了他的身影。车子开走，一条空荡荡的街，只立着一只邮筒。

我慢慢地、慢慢地了解到，所谓父女母子一场，只不过意味着，你和他的缘分就是今生今世不断地在目送他的背影渐行渐远。你站立在小路的这一端，看着他逐渐消失在小路转弯的地方，而且，他用背影默默告诉你：不必追。

我慢慢地、慢慢地意识到，我的落寞，仿佛和另一个背影有关。

博士学位读完之后，我回台湾教书。到大学报到第一天，父亲用他那辆运送饲料的廉价小货车长途送我。到了我才发觉，他没开到大学正门口，而是停在侧门的窄巷边。卸下行李之后，他爬回车内，准备回去，明明启动了引擎，却又摇下车窗，头伸出来说：“女儿，爸爸觉得很对不起你，这种车子实在不是送大学教授的车子。”

我看着他的小货车小心地倒车，然后噗噗驶出巷口，留下一团黑烟。直到车子转弯看不见了，我还站在那里，一口皮箱旁。

每个礼拜到医院去看他，是十几年后的时光了。推着他的轮椅散步，他的头低垂到胸口。有一次，发现排泄物淋满了他的裤腿，我蹲下来用自己的手帕帮他擦拭，裙子也沾上了粪便，但是我必须就这样赶回台北上班。护士接过他的轮椅，我拎起皮包，看着轮椅的背影，在自动玻璃门前稍停，然后没入门后。

我总是在暮色沉沉中奔向机场。

火葬场的炉门前，棺木是一只巨大而沉重的抽屉，缓缓往前滑行。没有想到可以站得那么近，距离炉门也不过五公尺。雨丝被风吹斜，飘进长廊内。我掠开雨湿了前额的头发，深深、深深地凝望，希望记得这最后一次的目送。

我慢慢地、慢慢地了解到，所谓父女母子一场，只不过意味着，你和他的缘分就是今生今世不断地在目送他的背影渐行渐远。你站立在小路的这一端，看着他逐渐消失在小路转弯的地方，而且，他用背影默默告诉你：不必追。

转载自豆瓣广场云野逸远

原来属于陈奕迅的达尔文

2008-10-11T08:07:00.000-07:00

[youtube=http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=dd5PxOrttXk]

闯

2008-10-02T05:31:00.000-07:00

那个小房间

温暖舒适安定

看着墨尔本的天气

时而大太阳时而风雨刮

还是小房间比较安全

哎呀

左转又是一面墙

右走又是一面墙

四四方方无聊透顶

我要出去啦！

诶呦，

那边怎么亮亮的，

门开了！

门开了！

Hello Penguins 1

2008-09-26T03:39:00.000-07:00

The day started off with driver Nat.

She said it was the first time she drove a friend.

Huaahaha, UNlucky me.

Then it continued with a glare from Chand.

Umm yea, I promised that I'd wear shorts. But I turned up wearing my jeans because Sheryl and Jack warned me that it was freaking cold outside. I didn't tell Chand about that as I was very blur after burning the midnight oil for my assignment.

Ok, an excuse.

Ahhhhhh... felt guilty for Chand but comfortable for my legs.

Nat, Jingharn, and I decided to sacrifice ourselves - became the lightbulbs - for our two beloved friends.

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="STRIKING light bulbs"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="hence they need SUNGLASSES"][/caption]

So what's the conventional first activity?

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="makan"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="an appetizer for the photo taking maniacs"][/caption]

After being misled by the GPS and turned a few false rounds, we finally made it to YHA backpackers. The guys were gentlemen enough, or they were forced to be one, to yield the well equipped units for the ladies while they took up the bunk beds. Thank you ^^.

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="326" caption="ladies' unit"][/caption]

Damien got to join the ladies. Because he's cute? Or because he's SUPPOSED to be one of us? Heee...

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="483" caption="Ermm... Damien, you looked quite happy huh?"][/caption]

We could not spend a minute doing nothing, so off we went to the beach.

We prepared ourselves with beach gears - thongs.

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="392" caption="THESE"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="240" caption="NOT these"][/caption]

The beach was not perfect. It was neither as good as Pulau Redang. But the experience was just wonderful, especially when it was shared with a bunch of friends.

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="空无一人这片沙滩"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="哪里有彩虹告诉我"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="朋友一生一起走"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="我要你陪着我看着那海龟水中游"][/caption]

As I mentioned above, we're photo maniacs that couldn't stop taking photos even on our way back to YHA.

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="I've SHORTEST hands =.="][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="435" caption="and SHORTEST legs"][/caption]

It was dinner time and we had fish and chips. So typical. The atmosphere was good though.

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="293" caption="Aww... So sweet~"][/caption]

It was then followed by a WILD night.

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="261" caption="a FRIDGE of alcohol"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="347" caption="alcoholics"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="347" caption="King of Gamblers"][/caption]

You would not want to know what came after that...

To be continued...

For a different perspective and better photo quality, pls visit:

742, For the sake of penguis - Part 1

CMG PPC

2008-09-23T17:22:00.000-07:00

Event: Post Production Camp

Date: 20th Sept - 22nd Sept

Venue: Phillip Island

Attended: 27 Cmgians

The story begins...

BP

2008-09-18T16:45:00.000-07:00

看着你的不满，

他的不舍，

还有他的失落，

我开始疑惑了。

我凭什么？

我客观，我无私。

为什么会觉得自己在背叛？

A Touching Piece from Michael Bublé

2008-09-14T08:47:00.000-07:00

LOST by Jann Arden, Michael Bublé, Alan Chang

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I'd only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognize the girl you are today
And God I hope it's not too late
It's not too late

Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Until the light comes pouring through
It's when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your world's crashing down
And you can't bear the cross
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy but you're not
Things have seemed to change
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Until the light comes pouring through
It's when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
And the world's crashing down
And you can not bear the cross
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

Ikut Suka Aku

2008-09-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

How internal security is threatened under Ikut Suka Aku

oh, and also the justification given by the delegate of 'Aku'

震惊

2008-09-13T06:36:00.000-07:00

只因自己狭隘贪腐而被民众所拒，

就用高压手段吓唬人民这招真绝，

你们都处在这样不文明的管辖内，

我们只能干坐在这祝福故乡平安，

那国度已经无法保障权利与宪法。

有多少人已亡魂于那可怕的法令，

快将正义、自由与希望还给我们吧！

喜悦

2008-09-12T17:36:00.000-07:00

刚刚到表姐家用过晚餐，

又是一次的‘又食又拎’咯。

真的很感谢，难得在澳洲过中秋还有家人相聚。

你的月饼，我吃掉了，

你的冷衣，我穿上了，

你的心意，我收到了。

---------------------------------------

yoohooooo!!!!

祝幸福

Mt Dandenong Trip

2008-09-09T04:29:00.000-07:00

Hehe, this was done ages ago. Since I'm procrastinating and there's nothing better to do, I shall write this long delayed post.

Yea, we went to Mt Dandenong for a day trip during winter break. What to do? I could not afford $600 ski trip, so this was already the best resort to recharge myself after those exhausting exams.

陈奕卉丹德侬山一日游 2008年7月6日晴

在一个风和日丽的早上，饶妈妈心血来潮，决定要带我们到丹德侬山一日游。
准备好旅游所需后，我们一行十人就浩浩荡荡的启程了。

半途中，我们肚子饿了。幸好我们有未雨绸缪，准备了零食充饥。
由于我们自小乖巧，所以希望籍着这个机会试试做小混混的感受。
谭祖母说：“对不起，但是我真的想赏饶妈妈一巴掌。”
噢，好暴力。

我们在车上有说有笑，不知不觉就到达目的地了，那就是马尔帕太太精致咖啡座。
饶妈妈曾经告诉我，这里有最好吃的烤饼(scones)。我们便在这里享用了一个美味的早餐。
我们的早餐包括配上酸奶油奶油和果酱的烤饼以及一碗香喷喷的浓汤。

由于我们的同伴还没有吃完早餐，我们只能站在门外等候。为了善用时间，我们顺道拍了几张玉照。

大姐非常善解人意，蹲一蹲好让我们的照片看起来更和谐。

接下来，我们出发到飞禽公园。

那里有数不清的鸟儿。
大姐说：“它们长得真像奕卉！腿都短短的。”
难怪它们都那么可爱。 ^^

红色杰克和围巾想要喂食鹦鹉姐姐。但是，它却只对同类情有独钟。

我们真的前世没有喂过鹦鹉。

待续...

请把手机关上,除非你钱很够用

2008-09-07T20:11:00.000-07:00

计算

2008-09-07T19:43:00.000-07:00

这年来，我一直在计算。

虽然对舞台剧有莫名的喜爱，
却计算着：”舞台剧只是兴趣，绝不能为了它忽略课业！”

虽然对辩论有万般的依恋，
却计算着：“我已经花了那么多年时间在辩论，是不是应该尝试些新的呢？”
甚至计算着：“我应该没办法在这间大学的辩论社得到太多，还是不要放太多时间了。”

虽然对CMG有种归属与情怀，
却计算着：“还是别做那么多，我比较享受自己的私人时间。”

喜爱、依恋与归属总不断地与计算相互拉扯。

所以啊，2008年，它是个犹豫不决的一年。

只敢参与一齣舞台剧、只愿偶尔陪陪练、只选择待在AP这种小忙有余，责任不足的职位上。

计算，是因为惧怕。

惧怕热忱会令自己忽略所有，像过去一样。
惧怕投入会令自己混淆对错，像过去一样。
惧怕信念会令自己无法客观，像过去一样。

惧怕的，原来是过去。

Take Care =)

2008-09-03T17:50:00.000-07:00

Frances is leaving Malaysia soon.

Really soon.

Nottingham; Cambridge; Malaysia; Melbourne.

All apart.

It seems that there's hardly a full reunion.

But I'll wait for one, patiently.

Ralat

2008-08-25T17:28:00.000-07:00

Dear all,

In response to the disapproval of our former production manager, we now clarify that Natasha Hot Butt Yeow's body shape can not be categorised as preeminent.

In fact, 'SUPERIOR QUALITY' is a more accurate word to describe her body shape. As FPM said, it is 'very errxing yet understandable'.

Yours sincerely,

Yi Hui Tan

CMG Home Department Officer

Bulletin

2008-08-25T17:11:00.000-07:00

Dear all,

Due to Natasha Xin Ci Yeow's leadership excellence and body shape preeminence, our former president and former production manager have jointly bestowed a divine appellation to her.

We shall, cmgally, address her as

**NATASHA HOT BUTT YEOW**!

Sincerely,

Yi Hui Tan

CMG Home Department Officer

搜寻生活

2008-08-15T07:15:00.000-07:00

词:钟成虎 / 曲:卢广仲

整个世界停止不转动很寂寞

走在海边数著萤火虫好困惑

想要的生活怎么有一百种

不想掉进这深深漩涡

整个海洋摆动柔软地举起我

孤独给我自由犹豫得好感动

想要的生活怎么有一百种

该怎走谁来告诉我

wow

每当我背对星空

抱著地球

发现自己其实脆弱不敢说

当我背对星空

不断摸索

爱情渐渐萎缩猜不透

无边的宇宙哪里有我想要的生活

奥运，对一个民族的体悟

2008-08-10T15:18:00.000-07:00

奥林匹克运动会开幕典礼结束了。

“WOW!”

似乎没有更好的形容词。

张艺谋总算为自己扳回一城，洗尽满城尽带黄金甲那华丽有余却图显空洞的前耻。

这一晚，依然华丽。

气势磅礴的开幕鼓击、徐徐掀开的历史画卷、铿锵有力的三千人朗读声、从舞台中央升起的变幻星球...每一幕都值得欢呼，每一幕都值得回味，每一幕都让人感叹： “到底怎么办得到的啊？”

但它不纯粹是一场令人激赏的表演。

它是中国人向世界宣示身份的时刻。

他们说：“我们的国土，拥有最悠久的历史、蕴藏着最丰富的文化。”

无论是悉尼还是伦敦，充其量只能做到五光十射或创意有趣，没有足够的内容像中国一样一篇一篇的展示他们的一步一脚印。

他们说：“我们站起来了。”

破烂的胡同、土绿色的素服、或是站在街边脏脏的小孩都不再是中国的刻板印象。他们告别了慈禧、告别了八国联军、告别了毛泽东、告别了那百年的民族自卑。

他们说：“我们没有任何的恶意。”

从千人朗读的‘四海之内，皆为兄弟也’到活字印刷表演所呈现的‘和’抑或是强调和谐的太极乃至于大会主题‘同一个世界，同一个梦想’，都一再表明中国的崛起不会对世界造成任何威胁。

他们还小声的说：“但是我们不好欺负。”

数数他们表演的人数、看看他们整齐的脚步、再听听鸟巢内的欢呼，中国人总动员的力量真的不容小觑。

我曾经很不屑那些过分狂热的民族主义分子。

But they really put up a great show.

A Reminder

2008-08-06T10:33:00.000-07:00

I could not write a single post lately.

This was pretty bad.

It meant that I had nothing interesting to tell or I had not learnt anything from my recent life.

What a dull life.

Take it as an alarm Yi Hui - You shall seek for the extraordinary in the ordinary - or you'll fall into a stagnant state.

火柴

2008-07-29T10:00:00.000-07:00

它是否只能燃烧一次

擦亮一时

枯灭就此

.

看到了又看到了再看到了

周遭怎瞬间变得明亮

自己的影子也不再浑散

一点一滴地拉长

.

模糊了它消失了全不见了

影子啊你奔往何方

周遭怎逐渐变得灰暗

你知不知道你奔往何方

.

它是否只能燃烧一次

擦亮一时

枯灭就此

.

你能否再燃烧一次

我很靓仔

2008-07-27T08:15:00.000-07:00

Boon got really famous after the camp. XD

Video and subtitles by Erick Lee

破功

2008-07-19T11:12:00.000-07:00

忍一时风平浪静

却须知孰可忍孰不可忍

退一步海阔天空

但小心纵容他得寸进尺

回超人心

2008-07-18T08:41:00.000-07:00

当你一直在飞当你无法停歇

忙着拯救全人类

别忘了地下还有等待你的谁

.

当你遇到拦截当你精疲力竭

在空中徘徊于进与退

来吧降落在那温暖的小空间

.

超人也有卸下披肩的一天

超人也可以流眼泪

结束那英雄故事

别窒息在那狭隘的电话亭间

.

超人也有卸下披肩的一天

超人也可以流眼泪

别管那世上无知

谁说会飞的人不会累

.

在路上走走和同伴走走

或许你会发现你不需再一次起飞

.

超人也有卸下披肩的一天

超人也可以流眼泪

别管那世上无知

谁说会飞的人不会累

Post Exam Craze Ep2

2008-07-12T16:42:00.000-07:00

I played too much last week and lost track with my days.

There were so many warm-hearted gathering nights which I couldn't remember which was which.

Technology does assist my degenerating memory.

Many thanks to Weijin, Baby, Jack Hung, and Chengmin's camera.

!st of all, present you another hot mama's splendid performance~ TADA!

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Next, the commercial version yet equally delicious Lygon breakfast!

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Oops, I think meals above were done during the exam period.

Oh well, who cares... It 'feels' like post exam. Nyak nyak.

And finally, the genuine post exam treat:

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Very original Thai Cuisine.

Those who normally eat half bowl of rice had at least two on that day.

But hor someone did not upload the photos of the delicious food, so let's take a look at the delicious people. XD

We visited Chin's sisters' high school Melbourne Ladies College on the same night. God Damn Hell Huge~~~

Then we went to the park nearby to help Chin's sisters reminisce their good old days.

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Another dinner worth mentioning:

Hot Mama prepared another three course meal!

This romantic dinner was attended by Teo's sisters, Nat, and me.

It started off with a creamy asparagus soup.

Our main course was the Hot Mama's Lamb Chop and her daugther's mixed vege salad + mayo egg.

It was nicely ended with the left-over-mix-drink: pear milk shake. Thanks to camp =.= We still have plenty at home.

Oh yea, the supposingly-three-course-meal followed up with a forth course - Durian Flavour Mooncake.

GRRRR... I FEEL HUNGRY NOW.

But it's 11.42pm. :S

Post Exam Craze Ep 1

2008-07-08T15:54:00.000-07:00

Right after exam.

Haven't had any rest.

Felt like not going.

Well... I went.

Luckily I went.

CMG Camp 2008

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CMGians seemed enjoying the camp a lot (At least I haven't received any bad comments. Phew~~). Lame jokes were scattered around. Laughter was everywhere. Team spirit was heightened. Everyone's potential flourished. Facebook's traffic, packed with new friend requests and uploaded photos, was so busy after the camp.

Thanks:

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Desmond and Nat for organizing the camp or we'd have to WALK into a random BUSH SITE and build a tent and STARVE to die.

Chanelle for the creative activities and ideas (esp CMG Oscar Awards Night a.k.a. CMG's Got Talent and the 'pigeon holes' on the walls).

Fiona for being the full-time-camera-hot-chick.

Doris for being another camera-hot-chick and helping out in everything, literally.

Weijin for running back and forth from the kitchen to make sure they know how to operate the gas stove.

Jingharn for waking up really early to prepare the breakfast and staying up till really late to wash the dishes.

Sheryl for being the lovely love cupid.

Kean Leong for Bahhhh~~ing and making all of us stomachache due to excess guffaw.

Myself for being the M.O.C.

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[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="423" caption="Fountain Hairstyle"][/caption]

[caption id="" align="alignnone" width="423" caption="Jun Wey had gloves?!?!? I never knew tt it was so hygienic"][/caption]

All the crazy campers that have participated enthusiastically, from the throwing-stinky-shoes-self -intro-session to the I-don't-know-CMG's-Got-So-Much-Talents-Awards-Night.

80 people a camp.

Not an easy job.

Hopefully there'll be a 80 people production team too.

Oh, maybe not. I need some to buy the tickets and watch the show.

河

2008-06-20T07:02:00.000-07:00

Too bored of studies?

Let's ROCK!

透过乐趣,寻找答案

2008-06-17T17:48:00.000-07:00

台湾超强辩手黄执中在部落格中说道:

"樂趣之所以會是樂趣，便在於它能讓人鬆軟軟的，踏入於某個充滿訝異與神秘的領域；在其中，你對某些訝異會感到欣賞，你對某些神秘會發出讚嘆，你會在自知己所不可企及處……豁達的自我調侃。"

"答案之所以是答案，卻意味著理解、操作與掌握，意味著鬆軟之下的堅硬脈絡，意味著你將面對著無數前人翻掘過的廣大焦土與曾經自認獨特的不再獨特，意味著你必須耐心、謙遜並放棄某一部份的隨心所欲。"

我在想,

我到底应该继续享受写作的乐趣, 还是寻找它的答案?

二者必然是鱼与熊掌吗?

想清楚了,前路或许就清晰一点了。

Where Hatred Scribbled

2008-06-17T16:59:00.000-07:00

Students love scribbling and doodling, regardless of age.

I saw a 'wall art' communication in Melb Uni Ballieu Library's toilet cubicle this evening.

"The first person in Australia is black you white bitch!"

There was an arrow pointing to its reply: "Do you think you'll be where you are now without us WHITES?"

It seems that racial discrimination is everywhere.

The fundamental difference, however, is that the relatively civilized informal form of discrimination is written on the toilet door while the uncivilized formal form of discrimination is written in the national law.

I FROZED A TRAM!

2008-06-14T19:02:00.000-07:00

Move?

Stay?

Move?!

Stay?!

Move?!!

Stay!!!!!!!!

"Ting, ting, ting, ting, ting..."

The tram driver must have been driven crazy by us.

He kept ringing the bell and I heard him saying: "Can you guys hear me?"

I think someone had also heard him asking: "Are you deaf?"

XD

Ok Ok, I should tell the story properly.

Today, Nat, Chand, and me decided to join the Melbourne Big Freeze held in front of Bourke Street Mall.

We had to freeze for 3 minutes.

We couldn't think of a good pose but we got a good spot - tram track.

Yep. And there we went on the tram track and we posed for 3 minutes and the tram came and the driver chased us off and we didn't go away.

WE WERE FROZEN AND WE FROZED A TRAM!!!

HUAHUAHUAHUAHUAAHUHAUA!

Natasha, Chand, and Me freezing on the tram track. I was trying hard not to laugh. Photo: Ephraim

I shall upload more photos and video when they're ready.

Special Thanks to Chand, Felix, and Natasha for the courage given.

If I weren't with you guys, I would have ran off when the tram was still meters away. Nervous~~~

After that, we went to catch up with the Melbourne Zombie Shuffle.

They were soooooo cooool!

Everyone just dressed like zombie, walked like zombie, behaved like zombie, and looked definitely like zombie.

These people have terrific make up skills. I think they could become professional make up artists for Hollywood movies.

The Incredible Zombie Hulk. Photo: Shayen Wong

Zombie Family. Photo: Stanley Tjhie

Zombie City. Photo: Facebook

And our friend, not very well prepared, joined the game with his zombie-like-long-hair.

I think the tourists must have been frightened.

Welcome to Melbourne.

换

2008-06-10T17:29:00.000-07:00

偶尔蹲下来看看

偶尔跳上去望望

一片景色三种景观

来生，一起走

2008-06-07T11:30:00.000-07:00

GAMBATENE!

2008-06-06T12:00:00.000-07:00

听说今年全中辩冠军所有辩手获赞助到海外学习。

心里真的没有很平衡。

HMPH!@#$%^&*

话说回头，大家看来都很享受这次的旅程。

冠军杯，没有也不算太坏对不？

继续加油！

Busking

2008-06-03T04:57:00.000-07:00

It is great to have Writing Journalism as one of my subjects.

I have the chance to interview those people that I would never confront them without the pressure of assignment.

In my second feature, I random searched on the street and I thought, "Hmm... Street performers must have interesting backgrounds," and yea, I walked up to them and asked for their interview. Well, three out of five were willing to be my interviewee. Not too bad huh? Here goes my story:

Don’t just throw coins at them without giving an eye.

They are not beggars.

According to Melbourne City Council’s guidelines, a busker is considered to be a person who: actively provides a display of artistry in a drawing medium; plays instrument; provides a song, mime, statue, or creative performance; or engages in dancing routine.

The definition does not include someone who ‘asks for public sympathy and alms’.

To Lan Derrick, Alan Dang, and Jimmy Mcintyre, at least, busking lives are definitely not begging lives.

Lan: It’s a therapy.

An array of framed sketches is nicely displayed on the floor.

Passers-by sometimes hold their steps, look at the artworks, exchange opinions with their companion, and donate a few coins into the little box set in the corner.

Lan Derrick, 57, and his wife Beverley Derrick have been a resident of this pavement – on Swanston Street, between Bourke and Collins – for 18 months. Lan’s artworks have formed a part of Melbourne city’s scenery.

Three years ago, Lan worked in a barnyard and drawing was always kept as a domestic interest.

“In the (work) accident, I was kicked by a horse. I lost almost everything,” Lan says. “I lost my hearing, I had a skull fracture, I had a horse-phobia, and I could not control my emotion.”

“The worst thing was, I could not draw anymore. I had no artwork produced for almost two years.”

He was diagnosed for depression after the accident, leading to a suicidal impulse at the beginning.

“I had been really aggressive towards the people around me and myself. I attempted suicide several times. I became violent sometimes.”

His five children fled the scene of his emotional roller coaster.

Beverley could not cope with her husband’s condition initially: “I would say that I’m a pretty optimistic person. Everything could be solved. However it still took me a bit of time to adjust myself to a partner that I’ve never seen. He can get over the top for times and get under the hollow.”

“Lan had totally lost his motivation for life. I got to make him do something so that he had stuff to look forward to.” Therefore, after a long discussion with Lan’s psychiatrist, Beverley started to retrieve his previous artworks.

She cleaned them, photocopied them, framed them, labeled them, put them into a large luggage, brought the luggage, and together with Lan, they moved from Eastern suburb to Melbourne inner city.

Their busking life started here.

“Money is never a concern. I don’t care how much people give. I want my husband to feel useful. I want him to get along with people,” Beverly says with an extrinsic adamant and an intrinsic love for her husband.

Busking, in its nature, reveals your works to the public and opens up yourself to public feedbacks. Positive responses have been the greatest encouragement for Lan to pick up his drawing pen again. “They like my drawings! I never thought that my drawings will be appreciated by anyone else. So then I thought, why not draw more beautiful stuffs for them?” He says.

Lan does not sit on the pavement doing nothing for hours. He talks to people. He observes the environment. He listens to stories.

“Busking is the most effective therapy for my illness.” Through the interaction with people, Lan realises that he is not the worst case. He meets people with unbearably obstacles and yet they see things more positively than he does.

“There was a man in a wheelchair who came to us. He could not speak. Even though he used a touchpad to communicate with us, he was still very positive about it. Now he comes here every month to talk to Lan,” Beverly recalls.

Lan does not merely reap the benefit. He gives too.

“There’s a 14 years old young boy, whose parents are separated, who comes here almost every week. He usually withdraws himself from people. But Lan has made friend with him and now they draw together on the bench. Wow, now he’s the therapist instead of the patient.” This is Beverly’s satisfaction over her husband’s progress.

Alan: It’s an opportunity.

A huge crowd gathers in front of the 24 hour Café Lincontro on the corner of Swanston and Little Collins Street.

They cheer, they rock, they tap, and they clap.

There is a cap located in the middle of the crowd, filled with coins and notes. This must be a good day for KO Crews.

Since 2003, KO Crews have been blasting their combo and bopping and hopping on this suppositional dance floor every weekend.

Alan Dang, as the group leader, decided to introduce his group mates to the public: “I know they’d love to perform. All of us loves showing off. But nobody knows us, it is impossible for us to perform in any clubs or events. And so I thought, we shall busk the street.”

Busking on the street is not that difficult given the talent they have and the entertainment they are able to provide for Melbourne City.

“We went to the city council, filled in the form, chose our favourite spot, attended an audition, and there we went on the street,” Alan says.

To them, busking is multi-functioned.

“There weren’t many people in the first few months. But as time goes on, more and more people applaud for us hence more and more confidence we have.” Alan is happy to see the evolution of his group.

They have at least three training sessions every week in which busking is the major one. The combination of these trainings and the confidence that they gained is gearing them for an international breakdancing competition.

“Some audience enjoyed our performances and invited us to their events. We have widened our opportunity through the exposure from busking.”

While some of the buskers need the money for a living, KO Crews use the money for partying. Alan chuckles, “Although sometimes we earn as much as a few hundreds, we are able to spend it all in one night. But oh well, this is a way for us to hang out and have fun, this is all we want, isn’t it?”

Yes, their busking is all about showing, training, and partying.

Jimmy: It’s an alternative.

In the bustling Flinders Station, there is always a soothing voice from the corner that calms down our fidget, slows down our tempo, and asks us to take life easy.

“Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away,” Jimmy Mcintyre, in his 50s, strums his acoustic guitar and sings his favourite song.

He He has been singing here for a year.

He is one of those frustrated musicians that are not able to make it into the mainstream.

“There are very limited opportunities in this field. Among all the musicians, I think there’s only five percent who are able to make profit out of it. That’s why everyone wants to go to the US or UK,” He complains.

He was not exclusive. He had been to the United Kingdom to try his luck. He had been in 15 bands, playing as the guitarist, bassist, pianist, and even as the drummer. He had performed in many gigs. He had submitted songs to recording companies. He had tried to make connections with those already in the industry.

None of them signed him for an album or a single.

However, he could not just be tangled in his music dream without considering realistic issues including feeding himself and his family.

“I love music. But my love wasn’t rewarded.” Jimmy turned his track onto Chinese medicine, acupuncture, clothes retailer, and later on as an operating theatres technician.

None of them brought him to his desired lifestyle.

After the divorce with his wife, after he earned enough money, after he broke up with his girlfriend, after he found a new way to play his music, he got back to his music dream path.

Busking – the alternative way – has given him a new perspective to his music life.

“I love music as an emotional expression, as a way of communication. I don’t need to be popular for that. The public will get my message even if I sing only on the streets.”

“Whenever there is someone praises my singing, quietly listens to me, donates a gold coin, or simply gives me a glance, any of these can make my day. I feel that I can make it without the recording companies or a bombarding publicity.”

He has also creatively invented ‘Street Karaoke’ – a set of karaoke system equipped with a DVD player, a microphone, and a song list – for people who would love to try busking without the permit application fuss. “Waterloo! Waterloo! Waterloo…” The youngsters scream and dance on the street.

Jimmy’s busking career is never without challenges. “There are drunk and aggressive people who throw 20 cents at you and ask you to sing those bloody rock songs,” he said in anger. “Who do you think you are to instruct me on what to sing? Just with the 20 cents coin?”

Jimmy is not a beggar.